Day 706 (9 of 30) - HERE is where we ALL Meet

I had a clear example today of how when I read people's words, I am always setting the tone of it! I am hearing the tone based on where I am!

You can read words in a way that's "negative," "positive" or even neutral. 

What happened today was even before I read the words, I anticipated conflict or a "negative response" so when I actually read the words, that's what I "heard." 

And then after some communication, I realized that is what happened and so I read the words again. And now what I "heard" was different. 

We really do set the tone of what we read, especially in the online space. It's so easy to think someone is saying something in this or that tone, but unless you practically HEAR their voice and their actual tonality, you are literally reading the words according to YOUR interpretation/anticipation/expectation.

Unless you are HERE and can HEAR from real.  

And now I see clearly why it's crucial to clear myself from all the ways which I've been programmed to be, like how I've been programmed to relate to myself, to people, the world, specific words, etc. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to read words based on my own past patterns/programs and influences instead of being HERE to see/hear directly what is here as another's words

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to only hear myself when I read another person's words as allowing my past programming/influences to direct my expectation, anticipation, and interpretations of another's words

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to clear myself of all biases, judgments, assumptions, definitions, beliefs, and expectations that are all based on the past and to thus be able to stand clear, here, in any/all moments as the presence and gift I am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to anticipate and expect the worst from communication with others 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to always anticipate criticism or a fight when communicating with others

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a constant state of defense/fighting when communicating with others

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I can be way more directive in how I read another's words and it's about being HERE within/as myself so I can hear clearly what is here

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that it's quite simple to HEAR what is actually HERE as another's words and it starts with me removing all blocks within/as me that prevent me from being here which is the true nature of myself

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to stand fully here to hear all that is here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within/as an illusion of the past as beliefs/ideas/interpretations/projections/expectations/anticipations when communicating with another instead of being HERE and thus hearing what is real

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that being here is the only thing that is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist reading people's responses to me in fear and anticipating criticism, judgment, blame and conflict instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding that is what simply exists within me and not within another's words towards me 

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and embody the knowledge that if another is communicating with me from a place of conflict, judgment, blame, or criticism and I am HERE then I will be able to hear that and assist and support them but if I am not HERE, it's because I am reacting to my own stuff and thus cannot assist them as I must first assist myself to drop all the baggage I carry as the stuff of the past

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that to be here is what is best for all because when I am here, I am able to assist and support others to be here as well and here is where we all meet in equality and oneness

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand and embody/live the knowledge that here is the only place that is real

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to distract myself with my own ongoings in the mind of the past as thoughts, projections, ideas, beliefs, and programming that is based in conflict and to thus prevent myself from being HERE and HEARING what is real

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to release all conflict within/as me once and for all

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand and embody the knowledge that if I am fighting with someone within my mind about what they said/communicated to me - I am not here but rather separate from here and lost in the past

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get lost within myself as the past of my mind

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to become so specific with regards to my awareness that I can always see when/as I am reacting and thus able to support myself to bring myself back here

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and embody/live the knowledge that being here is easy and being aware is easy and the process is easy

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to make life difficult by existing in fake realities such as the past instead of keeping it simple and being simply here, as the present moment and gift of life

When and as I see myself reading another's words online, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that I have the tendency to react to another's words due to an expectation/anticipation of conflict/judgment/blame/criticism and so I commit myself to take it to slow, read clearly, and ensure I am present within/as myself as the moment here to be able to see/read for real what is being shared/communicated with me without getting lost in the idea of what they are saying

I commit myself to being here

I commit myself to remove all points of conflict within/as me

I commit myself to be here to be able to clearly hear what is real

I commit myself to reading another's words without imposing a tone on them that is based on my own programming

I commit myself to keeping life and process simple

I commit myself to become supremely and specifically aware of myself in every/all moment

I commit myself to support myself in establishing myself HERE so that I may do the same for others as well