461: You Don't Have to be an Outsider - Invite Yourself In
Have you ever had that experience of being the outsider ? Feeling excluded from the group, you just don’t fit it, and cannot connect as seemingly easy as others seem to do? I have. Most of my life , as a child, a teenager, in my twenties, and even now and then I have this experience where I’m just on the outside of what others are ‘in on’. Like I somehow am the one looking in, standing outside of the group, or the conversation. The experience has varied throughout my life. In my twenties I suppressed the feeling by participating in social norms like going out drinking, and going to parties, putting on the facade of creating relationships with others, like I was a part of something, though of course, it wasn’t real and just pretend in a way to deny the actual experience which was when I was alone, or sober, I felt as if I wasn’t a part of anything really. In the last few years an interesting realization came up though. I was standing again in a group setting, where I was a part ...