Kristina's Journey to Life

Decided it was time to step out of my comfort zone... It's been long overdue and it may just prove to be more practical for the moment. So here we go. Vlog time. The  Journey to Lifers Take Responsibility for what is HERE in/as this world, within AND without: Desteni DIP Lite Course  (FREE) DIP Pro Eqafe  (Self-Perfecting interviews, books, music, etc) For your Info: Destonian Wiki Equal Life Foundation SOUL (School of Ultimate Living)

A point in relation to judging myself and then suppressing myself in moments of communication where I go into fear of sharing myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the considerations or perspective that I have I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as stupid for the considerations or perspective that I have and then within this not want to share myself, not actually wanting to be self honesty about what is going on within me – what is here as me, and instead would rather suppress myself, deny myself in fear of how others will see/perceive/judge me as I have done unto myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for what exists within me, as a point of self honesty or simply a perspective I have or a consideration I could make – to judge myself for this and then project it unto another is if they are the ones to do this to me and then to within this suppress mysel...

This point is in relation to how I had lived my life before, wherein I would replay the thoughts that "I'm not doing anything with my life - I am a loser, and a failure, someone, please give me direction!" Which is obviously within a negative context - yet no solutions were ever lived or changes made, I would just basically sit in my shit and complain and whine and moan about how I was a failure at life, allow myself to judge myself, yet never realize the simplistic solution to DO something about it. Now I seem to be living the polarity. I am busy these days, with school, and work and tutoring and my participation with desteni. I have taking on many responsibilities and commitment - and I am grateful to be doing what I am doing, as every moment of each task is the opportunity to in fact face myself and change the patterns I have seen myself live out. Yet - within this, I have accepted myself to go into the 'positive' side of it as, "Look at all the thin...

Tonight I reacted to seeing another had seen some of my videos on youtube . Here self forgiveness for the experience. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to the idea of another seeing my videos I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react within myself as fear to the idea of another seeing my videos, yet present an image of myself as calm and not worrying about it I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear another was seeing my videos and judging me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself within my videos and project them unto another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear another seeing my videos and laughing at me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to imagine and picture in my mind another watching my vids at a friends house and them laughing at me I delete this image within my mind I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being laugh...