Day 709 (12 of 30) - My Specialty
Time to redefine the word SPECIAL. It's come up in a few blogs previously walking the Star Process and I see there is still some emotional points within me in relation to that word so I'd like to look deeper to see what's here. I am giving myself permission to break from structure and go with the flow of how to ground/redefine this word. So special... this word is LOADED for me. I feel as if the word special didn't play a big role in my life until I started my Desteni Process some 15 years ago. The word, when I would hear or read it, was like a strike against me and I felt like I would coward and hide from it in Fear because I desired to be special. Or I thought of myself to be special and then in process I defined that as "bad" so it was something I was ashamed of about myself, that I used to want to be or felt I was special. When I was younger and growing up - it was like I did feel special, but also more like an outcast/outsider. It felt like something...