Kristina's Journey to Life

Let's continue with the redefining and living process of the word SPECIAL.  The sounding stage... this one has been in me for days.  The Spec in All. I am the speck in all.  Special.  Spesh all.  Bless all.  Special Space all Spacious.  There is enough room for everyone and everything to be special.  The speck in all. This is like the light within each one. The spark of Life. the Source/Cause/Origin of all. The God that is in All.  Not special - literally the same thing, that point that is us as ONE. What we all come from, what we all return to. The light that gives life to everything. The eternal flame, the point of equality and oneness. That One Principle. The One Directive. All as One as Equal.  That one Point.  There is no getting around that one point.  There is only one point. And everything stems from that One Point. We are One and the Same.  Special-ness is to get specific with who one is AS all that is - as the ON...

  Oooooh, I'm excited about this blog.  The title came up first, earlier in the day, as I was looking at continuing with the redefinition process of the living word Special.  In the previous blog, I looked at how I lived the word previously/how it has been defined within myself and my life. It was quite revealing as I realized there was this awareness within/as me all of my life that knew who I really was, deep within, locked away, but there... always 'there' almost like in waiting. (The key now is to bring it HERE). So I really enjoyed that last blog and am eager to keep this ball rolling.  Looking today at the definition/etymology/root of the word.  One definition that jumped out at me as the root word for special (looking at the Oxford Online English Dictionary) was having to do with "specific" - "having a close or exclusive connection with a specified person, thing, or set; own; particular; individual. This jumped out at me because of the word "speci...

Time to redefine the word SPECIAL.  It's come up in a few blogs previously walking the Star Process and I see there is still some emotional points within me in relation to that word so I'd like to look deeper to see what's here.  I am giving myself permission to break from structure and go with the flow of how to ground/redefine this word.  So special... this word is LOADED for me.  I feel as if the word special didn't play a big role in my life until I started my Desteni Process some 15 years ago. The word, when I would hear or read it, was like a strike against me and I felt like I would coward and hide from it in Fear because I desired to be special. Or I thought of myself to be special and then in process I defined that as "bad" so it was something I was ashamed of about myself, that I used to want to be or felt I was special.  When I was younger and growing up - it was like I did feel special, but also more like an outcast/outsider. It felt like something...

Self forgiveness for reacting to another's words that I could relate to within my experience and the attempt to be special I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to react to another's words about that I believed were in relation to me, judging myself based on their words as if I was being dishonest I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as special within separation from life through seeing fuzzy haze and light around beings and objects I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to desire special skills such as being able to see others auras and energies as a way to be special and different from others, instead of being equal with all as one as me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my seeing fuzzy haze and light around beings and objects when I loosen my gaze to be me seeing auras and energies and within this feel special that I was able to see things others were not seeing I forgive myself for ...