100. Playing Catch Up for Consequences Accumulated
So I see this pattern of not doing something for awhile that requires consistent attention/application – and after sometime of not paying any attention to it, or being inconsistent with it – I then go into this “I have to make up all of this and I will” character. Where I am then playing catch up – adding more to the day’s responsibility that I Have accumulated from the past, and always in a way then stuck in the past . For instance – I am on day 100 of writing – and yet, I have only posted up to day 83.(I am still in the process of “catching up – as currently I am on day 115 for my self writings – and only now am placing this day 100) That’s 17 days I am behind in posting my blogs – and every day it’s the same thoughts , “today I will post at least 2 blogs” yet when it comes time to it, I only post one. And I had this desire to be “caught up” by day 100, so I could make this grand gesture/image presentation of being like, Here I am, day 100 and caught up on my blogs, and from her...