Kristina's Journey to Life

In the last, I would say almost year, I can see just how much I allow myself (and have always allowed myself) to become possessed and obsessed within the energy as desire for relationship. And despite the knowledge that I have regarding relationships, and how they are so effectively reflective of ourselves, I have still attempted and pushed for a relationship with another in many avenues. There was no physical consideration, or direct communication or getting to know someone for real, there was only the energy of desire directing me to ‘get what I want’ because ‘I want it now’. Obviously I missed the key point – LIVING the knowledge, as without the physical living application, knowledge is useless. So while I KNOW that an intimate relationship with myself is the ONLY way to create an intimate relationship with another, I have attempted to ignore this crucial point in search for my self interest. In my search, I have not seen /realized/understood that while I am busy looking ou...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe throughout my Life that I need to be in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that life is not complete unless I am in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define living Life as being in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore myself and thus seek myself separate from myself here through seeking a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within self judgment of myself so much that I did and would not be alone and thus always seek out a potential partner wherein I could hide from myself within the relationship and not have to face the fear I had of being alone - within all of myself here I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being alone and thus exist within the starting point of fear when entering a r...