Kristina's Journey to Life

  A few weeks ago I was at the bank to deposit some money for a client. While I was there, the person behind the counter stopped what she was doing to mention that if the person who was receiving the deposit was not physically in the bank, they would not be able to transfer/wire the funds anywhere. She then explained to me the reason for such a rule, which seems obvious, yet something else came up within me in this moment. To consider the reasons why there are so many 'security checks' at banks - how we will not trust someone calling in asking for money to be wired to another account - is because there are people in this world who would try and take money from someone else if such an opportunity presented itself. Now we could go off into the direction of exploring and understanding why someone would attempt to take money that is not theirs, but rather here I want to explore another direction of this. There is distrust in this world... we do not trust each other because we ...

Continuing on from the previous blog where I discussed various points in relation to change and creation - the process, and the manifestation. Here and blogs to follow will be on the points I see needing some re-alignments and self-honest perspective to get me back on track in terms of living change. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within/as wanting quick fixes I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within/as expecting quick fixes and instantaneous change I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to see, and realize the physical space and time in how it works, and what it takes to create changes , and fixes, and to rather instead want things to move fast I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to embrace the pace of breath by breath living as an exquisite opportunity to slow time down, and to work moment by moment and realizing all that can be accomplished, changed , created, and manifeste...

I recently was interviewed for a new job, and got the position. I was slightly hesitant about it at first because it would be a change and essentially me stepping out of my comfort zone, yet after the interview I saw it was the potential necessary to get me moving in terms of my financial position. There was some fear in relation to speaking about this new position to my current manager, at where I currently work, as having to limit my availability and basically changing my schedule around. I thought she would take it personally and I am putting her 'out', like in a bad position/situation. Although, I did not consider, until now, that there are so many people at my current job that are wanting to work more and the shifts are simply not available. So it can actually help her with accommodating more people and take off some pressure she might have in terms of people looking to her for more shifts and wanting to work more. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed ...

I would like to open up a new point here and a new opportunity for myself to let go of the many distractions I've allowed within myself and thus in my process of actually getting real. A point I saw today as I was coming home from the store and walking into the house and through the living room and into the dining room, was this point of self responsibility and self awareness and how in each moment we have this amazingly great opportunity to really become intimate with ourselves and our environment/physical reality - but how so often we allow something to distract us from what is actually here and thus who we are within and as what is actually Here. I have come to see this point previously in my process - this point of self responsibility within every moment I have as each breath and what I specifically do within/as each of the moments - how do I shut the front door, do I leave things as I found them - do I deliberately and specifically move myself in actually directing what I...

I'm continuing here from the previous blog of self forgiveness in relation to self definitions that have only limited me within myself and my life and how I see they have influenced me in certain moments and so here the corrective statements as corrective changes I will make to ensure I no longer accept and allow myself to limit myself within how I see/accept and define myself to be When and as I see myself defining myself within negative energies as limiting myself within how I see myself and who I allow myself to be - I stop and I breathe and I bring myself back to my body , back to myself here and do not allow myself to entertain thoughts or back chats or ideas within my mind that are actually self abusive and keep my trapped in ideas of myself that I have formulated yet are not real as I see/realize/understand that inferiority/superiority game I am playing with such definitions of myself and how through accepting myself within a negative idea about me, I attempt and try to...