Kristina's Journey to Life

This day I had a point within me where I saw I had decided to do something, but I kept putting it off. I knew I would do it, but I kept waiting to direct myself. The hours of the day went on and on until it became clear I was wasting time. In waiting until the last moments, I create unnecessary anxiety and tension within my physical body when I could simply have had the idea, and then physically moved myself to do it. - In that moment! To act on it. After all, it is our actions or lack thereof that create in this world. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to procrastinate on ideas I have as actions what would support me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to consider something I would like to do in a day but wait to the very last minute in the day to do it - existing within a resistance all day towards that idea instead of directing myself immediately in the moment as the consideration arise I forgive myself that I have accepted and a...

Majority of our conversations consists of what? Can you guess? I’ve observed recently just how much our interactions with each other is solely about OTHER people. Granted those people are around us, living among us, part of our family, or friends network, and people we work with but take a look and take notice, become aware of the fact that majority of what we talk about with one another is about other people. We have opinions, and ideas, and beliefs, mostly interpretations, about what other people say and do; how they behave and conduct themselves within their lives. Our focus is so much projected outward, it’s no wonder we have no clue who we are, or what's going on in this world as the outer reflection of each individual. We spend so much time judging, and analyzing why others do what they do, or say what they say, and often we cast our judgments in a way that makes us feel smarter, or better, or superior, or somehow more right based on how we see other’s living and makin...

I will continue on with the series of blogs I am writing, wherein I am correcting this relationship I had created towards responsibilities, specifically homework, the time necessary for that and how I created ways in which to compromise myself actually in holding onto a positive energy and thus not 'freeing up' the time I was getting this energy fix for more supportive actions. Tonight's blog is in relation to the outflow of the starting point I had created towards my responsibilities. Within a negative perceptions/ reaction towards my responsibilities, I then turned to find the outlet - the release - the point in which I could experience the opposite polarity of what I had actually accepted and allowed of/as myself in relation to responsibilities - which was moments of entertaining myself with series and online games. It was like little rewards I was giving myself throughout the day for 'getting through' the responsibilities I had. In this, I see I created ...

"Every One change in their own time" In Time - we believe we heal. Through time we believe things will 'fall into place'. In time we believe we will see the truth and find peace. But what is time and how does time move? Per second? Per Minute? Per hour, day, week, year? How do we grasp time and why is time something that happens to us? Why are we not living as time - walking with time breath by breath - moment by moment here? The idea that 'every one change in their own time" implies everyone exists in their own reality. as if time is calculated and accumulated differently for each person. This implies separation as we say, "I am not there yet - I will get there in my own time" Don't we realize Time is here Equal and One with all - as we are all on One Earth, that moves the same and we have days and night and we are all walking through time together. No one has their own experience of time.... Unless you are in your Mind. In your Mind - you...