635: I Am Depending on Who I'm With
I listened to an old recordings I had from back in 2010 where the point of discussion was around how I had never actually learned how to communicate with males because I had programmed and conditioned myself to be a very specific person, with very specific words and tonalities, body language and movements and a very specific presence around males... always within the starting point to 'catch a mate'. And so the point was how I never really developed how to be myself around men. Which I remember how bad this used to actually be - meaning how much I actually changed myself for and in the presence of males - and although I've seen a change, I do still see this change within me when in the presence of males. Of course I've 'caught my mate' lol so the context is different, but that lack of developing 'how to be myself' around males still has a consequences in my life today and so I see I can become more directive and specific within myself when around m...