Kristina's Journey to Life

In continuing from yesterday's blog , with regards to the reaction I had to the time it would take me to get something done, where I reacted negatively to the idea of it taking me 50 days to complete an assignment. Some things for me to consider: When looking at the 'natural world' as this physical reality , and the things that grow here 'naturally' - what I see is trees, and plants that take their sweet time to grow and develop and in that process, it is never as the process is 'complete' - it is simply here, doing it's thing, like a tree - converting the CO2 into oxygen, absorbing the sunlight, giving a home to a vastness of species, I mean it does what it does without an end result pushing it to do more in a quicker amount of time. And while I understand the perspective that one can become efficient in how they utilize time and maximize it to get things done - when one is moving to reach an end result to define oneself within an idea that 'q...

A point I faced today was resisting being direct in communication and instead allowing myself to be quiet and expect another to just read my mind . I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not be direct in my communication with others and instead expect them to read my mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to express something or communicate something but not speak directly about it – opening up the point – and instead sit and wait for a sign from another whether it’s okay or if we will take that direction or not and when this did not happen – become annoyed and frustrated and further perpetuate already not being physically directive in my reality through sitting with the points in my mind I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear expressing points that come up within me as communicating about them with another in thinking I should not communicate about it instead of realizing I could have simply brough...