Kristina's Journey to Life

Here I'm closing the distraction point because to continue writing about distractions and what I use to distract myself is not necessarily living the correction and as such, realizing the actual problem. I mean the solution is within the problem and the problem that cause one to seek out a distraction is the unwillingness to become self honest and face what one accepts and allows. I have used distractions for a multitude of purposes, yet the one point that remain is the unwillingness to stop and change . To actually move myself through any/all energetic reactions or experience that trigger within me, to actually take self responsibility and face what is going on - a distraction is a lacking of self awareness and self willingness to get to know self for real. I mean, the moment I give myself the apparent choice to choose a distraction, I am absolutely implying that I don't care to know why I am running away from myself, why I want to hide out from myself, why I am not w...

A point of ‘keeping my options open’ within not making a decision and thus not considering others in my actions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in two scenarios wherein I believe in both I will win and thus keep both ‘options open’ for me within my own self interest and within this not considering all involved and only considering myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire to hold onto two points in my world wherein I believe if one option does not work out I can go for the other options and within this sitting on the fence, not making a decision and only considering my self interest of how I feel, wanting to win within wanting to have ‘either or’ option, wherein if one point does not work out then I will still have the other option at my disposal – within this revealing the deceit and manipulation as I attempt to play the game for me to win, not considering others involved and who they are and their position...