Day 255: A Life Worth Living?
Continuing from yesterday's blog where I write out a point I have been facing that I came face to face with in the form of anger/rage. I recapped the points that I placed in the blog and so here I will take that first line of what I see was the cause/source/origin for the reactions and experiences I have been having the last few days and specifically what triggered the anger and rage within me. "I accepted and allowed myself to define myself as unworthy and not good enough." I mean this is clear to me that due to this acceptance and allowance as a self definition of 'who I am', I have created all sorts of relationships and play-outs in my life that were perhaps preventable; causing myself unnecessary strife in accepting such an idea about myself and then actually believing if another offer this to me, it would be real and make 'okay' the already established self definition of me. Obviously it can't, it wont and it hasn't. So what I am...