Kristina's Journey to Life

Hi all! I know - it's been a few months since I last published a blog. I have some blogs waiting in the wings, I just had not gotten around to publishing until now. That being said, there is a lag in the subject matter so bare with me for a moment. I will do my best to get those waiting on the sidelines up and out and to continue publishing more 'present' subject matter in the near future. The reason there is such a delay between writing and publishing is that I have taken on some new projects for myself... doing lots more vlogs (which you can see HERE ) and editing takes WAY more time than I ever consider. Also, I'm back in school. Just 1 course per semester but still... between that and a full-time job, it takes up most of my weekday evenings and some of my weekends.  I am patient so you will have to be too. And so without further delay here is the first blog written in regards to Inner Views, the kickstart to getting me back into vlogging... ********...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself as who I am currently I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to hide who I am currently as my habits and patterns as a point of self judgment - realizing here I am thus in separation of the points that I see I would like to change yet could not possibly as I am standing in separation of them as if they are not me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to judge parts/aspects of myself is like a form of suppression where I am implying it is not me and thus wanting to deny/ignore it I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I must judge that which I would like to change instead of realizing that I cannot possibly change anything if I am judging it as that is an act of separation and when I am separate from a point I am not equal to it which is where the actual power to change exists and so I forgive my...

A point of doing things/tasks/responsibilities throughout my day for reasons of self interest as self definition I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to measure who I am according to the things I ‘complete’ and get done/through in a day I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do things in my day simply because it is necessary to be done and without energetic expectations as feedback that feed my self interest I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more I do in a day the better a being I am and within this think that if I am doing enough things then I am worthy of life and worthy of myself within my own process I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there are specific things that I must do within a day and if I do not do these things then I am a failure and then become afraid of being this definition I have imposed on myself revealing that my starting point for be...