Kristina's Journey to Life

Today I had a bit of an upset stomach after lunch. It came on quite quick after eating, and rendered me immobile for a couple of hours. This is the third time I've experienced this kind of pain in the past two months, this time being the most severe. The reason I am bringing this up in a blog is because while there is the physical symptom of something going on - my body processing something, and causing pain, there is other dimensions existing as well, which is the mental one. Often when I get sick, or don't feel absolutely stable within my physical body - even if it's the slightest bit of being uncomfortable, I usually react quickly. I will get frustrated, and feel like a victim, and feel like I cannot possible move to my utmost, and must simply give in to the experience, and in a way 'fall' within myself, like a giving up . Now obviously if there is physical pain, then yes, I'm not going to be able to perform to my optimum as the body is going through ...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react within my physical reality wherein physical points come up that I have either committed to or see are necessary to 'walk through' and complete and to within this react to having to address or walk through physical reality points in the moment, as they arise, that I did not expect or 'plan for' because of this idea I have created and accepted within my mind of 'what today will look like' in terms of what I would like to have gotten done I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to see my days within my mind of the tasks and responsibilities that are required to be done and to within this say "yes, this is what I will do today and this is how it will look and this is how i will feel if/when I do all these things" and so when physical reality reveals an alternate point that was not in the list within my mind of the things I 'wanted' to do, react in not wanting to ...