Kristina's Journey to Life

I'm sick again. This is the second time this year and within me are the thoughts "not again" and "what did I do wrong" and overall a judgment towards me for being sick again as thinking this is a negative consequence to something I've done. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to becoming sick again in thinking I shouldn't be sick again since I was just sick a month or so ago I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist being sick as not wanting or willing to let myself really relax as being sick because I think I'm not supposed to be sick, and I've already been sick so I've 'done my time' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for being sick in thinking and believing I've done something wrong, as a point of a negative polarity as a judgment of 'bad' instead of considering and asking myself what created this, or how was this create...

Art By: Harumi Hironaka I was sick this past week, and had to take some days off work... what opened up was the fear that exists when not being able to work in a system based on survival and where, as a lot of women , I'm not giving me, and my body, my priority attention, and care I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty when sick because I feel as if I'm letting people down who depend on me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want my body to 'quickly get over it' when being sick - giving it no more than two days to be immobile and after that, it better be ready to move again I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be conditional in how much rest I will give my body when it needs it the most I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others being upset with me when I'm sick in thinking I am letting them down when perhaps it is specific to both me and others ...