Kristina's Journey to Life

I am in a position where I sometimes must delegate tasks and I see within me quite a fear of doing this, especially with certain people... behind the fear is an idea that the person receiving my request will react, become upset and lash out at me. Also behind this fear is a definition I've given to someone in such a position of delegating tasks, wherein I've defined it a certain way, as a negative, and so I then fear others seeing me in that exact same way if I were to be in a delegating position. Both points are accepted and allowed constructs of my mind... and both points can be disengaged, cleared out, and corrected. Let's go! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to be a delegator I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think too less of myself to be in a position of delegating tasks and responsibilities to others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear to ask someone to do something because...

I arrived home last night after my ten day vacation with family. It was a fulfilling trip in that I spent most of the time with family, and friends, which was the purpose of course. One thing I was looking forward to was feedback for myself.. to see who I was/am with family. Family has been proven to be one of the most difficult triggers for me when it comes to facing myself/my mind/my reactions. And of course it would - family is closest to what we are, as our nature, so to come face to face with that can be challenging as you are face to face with who you really are, yet to be self-honest about what you see, and take responsibility for that can be hard. Often what is normal is just the conflict within family... the fights, or irritation, or annoyances, and frustrations. We often brush off the behavior of our family, and accept it the way it is, because our family is us, and what we accept and allow within ourselves , we accept and allow within another.  For me though this ...