Kristina's Journey to Life

Ok - so here I will walk the self corrective statements and commitments I will live in regards to the self forgiveness that I wrote out here . When and as I see myself attempting and trying to find things 'to do', outside and separate from me here, such as responsibilities and projects and actions- I stop and I breathe and I check myself within the starting point as I see/realize/understand that if I am attempting to fulfill myself as I fill my days with 'things' to do - then I am separating myself from the word fulfillment and adding a positive charge/experience to it and so I commit myself to equalize myself within/as the word fulfillment, in bringing myself back to physical reality and out of the mind where I generate positive and negative experiences in relation to how I have defined the word fulfillment - I commit myself to walk fulfillment as who I am here, as I fill myself with/as the breath of life and that which is of actual physical substance - that wh...

I am continuing here specifically from yesterday's blog where I went into the polarity play out of who I am within the word 'fulfillment' as how I defined myself/the word within/as it. This is also a blog in sequence from almost a week ago, which you can see here , where I began writing myself to freedom - to see what what here in terms of what I was identifying as behavior in my life that I was not satisfied with or saw that I could improve. The blog yesterday specifically, I identified the positive charge I gave the word 'fulfillment' and how I defined it, saw it was within self interest and even superiority and also could see the consequences I created from living in separation of the word and so here I will just begin writing self forgiveness for the positive charge I gave the word and continue with it in blogs to come. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word fulfillment to be in separation of me here within gi...

Ok - so I am going to get into the polarity I have been living out as of recently - this positive experience of defining 'fulfillment' to be that which I live as having many responsibilities and actions I must take in my day to day living, filling up my days in order to 'feel' fulfilled. I can see how when I started walking with desteni, it was this point of "yes - finally, now I have something to DO in this life " and so can see I was excited about walking this process and participating within all that we do within/as a group pushing for a world that is best for all - and how I saw my responsibility to educate myself, to be active in my reality - to participate with others and find out for real what is going on and so obviously there is much to do in this life. Yet - who I was within this was one using these actions and responsibilities to essentially make myself feel better, to define myself as living a 'fulfilled' life, to define myself as doi...