Kristina's Journey to Life

  I was looking at the word STABLE as a living word , how to express it, how to live it, how I've come to abdicate my ability to be/live the word stable, and some very cool points opened up and came through.  What I can see creates instability within/as me is when/as I accept and allow myself to exist within/as and participate within/as the Mind as reactions. When I have a thought of judgment or opinion about someone or something, or myself, or some circumstance within the polarity of what is "right" or what is "wrong" - that is when I accept and allow myself to live/be unstable.  I change - one moment I am one thing/expression and then, according to what someone says or does or how they behave or if something happens or doesn't happen, then I have a reaction - I have an idea or thought about it that is based on emotions that is based on a "right/wrong" perspective.  True stability as a living expression is the Physical. The Body. The Earth, the P...

I have been feeling the call to write here again.  I started this Journey to Life 12 years ago!? Something like that... The original purpose was to write to an equivalent of 7 years to birth myself as Life - taking daily account and responsibility for who I am in all I do and in all relationships that exist from/as me.  And I did that (to a degree) - I walked consistently to a point where I "returned to my innocence" and was born anew.  My life radically changed in a moment, which, looking back now, I can see was an accumulation of many, many, many moments and many, many, many actions and many, many, many decisions made over and over again to become the best version of myself.  And I got to that point. Or at least - I got to a point where I was so liberated within an innocence and pure love that it felt like I had reached the ultimate freedom.  Since then, which was almost 5 years ago now, I've been exploring myself and life in ways I wouldn't have allowed mysel...

There are some patterns I've seen throughout my process that have recently emerged again and I wanted to address them here.  One of them is my seeking and consumption of information. This is generally in relation to the Desteni Material and other channeled material that I've enjoyed in the past few years.  Now, from my perspective, there is nothing wrong with enjoying information/material shared by others, especially if/when it is to support yourself in your process of self-realization.  The starting point is the key and one question can reveal the starting point. Why am I consuming the information?  The experience of self can also reveal the starting point. Recently I started to feel overwhelmed and confused and lost a bit and with every interview/recording/article I would hear or read, I felt even more uncertain about myself. After talking with my partner about this, he mentioned, "you have been consuming a lot more information lately."  Indeed I have been and...

I recently shared that some words I was redefining and living for myself were Creator, Love, and Grace. Someone asked me to expand on how I live those words practically so I decided a blog would be the best place to do so. I'll start with Grace - this is a word that came up in a reading I recorded recently for my YouTube Channel - the point of Grace specifically in relation to a Swan and the feminine body. So for me, specifically at the moment, the word as a practical expression is in relation to my physical body.  As a Swan, I see them so graceful - gliding on water with such precision and elegance. There is such stillness yet fullness to them. Their necks are long and their movements so precise.  The actress Robin Wright is also another example of someone whose physical is the embodiment of Grace, as I see her - with her long neck and such a straight/upright, poised posture, she carries such length throughout her body, which creates what looks like spaciousness. Her movement...

The beautiful thing about having a reaction towards what someone else is doing is that is so CLEARLY shows you to yourself.  I had a reaction towards my partner in how I viewed him relating to our son who was experiencing a fever.  I reacted to how he was "babying" him, and acting like he couldn't do anything else except be by his side. To me, this was not serving our son as it was disempowering for him because my partner was victimizing him.  The truth is, whether he was doing that or not, I had a reaction to it. I got upset; I wanted to lash out, I wanted to push him to stop, I was the one judging.  So then, after some moments of reflecting, I could see I was, in fact, the one that has participated in such patterns.  When we got our dog Hazel almost 7 years ago, I was always seeing her from the perspective of "something is wrong with her," feeling sorry for her and seeing her in a disempowered way.  I've also participated with that pattern in relation to ...

I recorded a video today for my YouTube channel , and one of the points that came through was the true nature/expression of who we are. For those who have been following along long enough, you know what I will say, lol—our innocence, of course—but today's recording made the point clearer for me.  Simply put, looking at who each one is as they were born into this world- innocent, pure, perfect.  That is who we really are. There is no denying or getting around that. The being we are, that All are, when entering this world/reality, is innocent, pure, and perfect. The perfection of Life expressed.  To say it is anything less than that for the rest of its life is the lie.  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as less than perfect, pure, and innocent I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define anyone else as less than perfect, pure, and innocent I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see mysel...