Kristina's Journey to Life

Every type of spiritual texts or channeled material or body of work that relates to the self and the development of the self, I've come across states the same thing... S L O W  D O W N. Slow down.  Move slower. Take more time to consider and reflect. Stop moving so fast.  And with having this knowledge for all these years, and having practiced it here and there, I can see there is still this rushness to "get on" with it - on to the next action, the next moment, the next step in the process of a day.  As I got up this morning and preparing to take my hour in the office before I start the day with the kids (my partner and I have set up a specific schedule for us so that I may have some time for me before the day starts and before he works for the day) - and I was stepping out of the RV and walking across the yard to our tiny house while my coffee spilled with each step I took, I reflected on my state of being.  I was rushing. I was moving fast. I was quick to get ...

What I've come to see, realize, and understand is that I am Worthy of Wealth because I was Born Wealthy.  The fact that I am breathing here, with a heart that pumps blood throughout my whole body, consistently, repeatedly, without doubt or question, assured... that tells me my worth.  I am worthy of being alive because I am.  I am worthy of this Earth because I am here.  I am worthy of Life because I was born.  I have been exploring this concept of wealth and money and worth lately - exploring ways to create more abundance and resources in my life and what I am coming to realize is that it's not about what's in my bank account, it's not about what paper I have to spend, it's not about that thing I am doing that will generate the flow I am looking for... It's about ME Realizing Who I really Am.  Because Who I really am is wealthy. Who I really am is rich in the truest sense, is worthy of everything because I AM everything! This idea that we have to work to g...

  I was looking at the word STABLE as a living word , how to express it, how to live it, how I've come to abdicate my ability to be/live the word stable, and some very cool points opened up and came through.  What I can see creates instability within/as me is when/as I accept and allow myself to exist within/as and participate within/as the Mind as reactions. When I have a thought of judgment or opinion about someone or something, or myself, or some circumstance within the polarity of what is "right" or what is "wrong" - that is when I accept and allow myself to live/be unstable.  I change - one moment I am one thing/expression and then, according to what someone says or does or how they behave or if something happens or doesn't happen, then I have a reaction - I have an idea or thought about it that is based on emotions that is based on a "right/wrong" perspective.  True stability as a living expression is the Physical. The Body. The Earth, the P...

I have been feeling the call to write here again.  I started this Journey to Life 12 years ago!? Something like that... The original purpose was to write to an equivalent of 7 years to birth myself as Life - taking daily account and responsibility for who I am in all I do and in all relationships that exist from/as me.  And I did that (to a degree) - I walked consistently to a point where I "returned to my innocence" and was born anew.  My life radically changed in a moment, which, looking back now, I can see was an accumulation of many, many, many moments and many, many, many actions and many, many, many decisions made over and over again to become the best version of myself.  And I got to that point. Or at least - I got to a point where I was so liberated within an innocence and pure love that it felt like I had reached the ultimate freedom.  Since then, which was almost 5 years ago now, I've been exploring myself and life in ways I wouldn't have allowed mysel...

There are some patterns I've seen throughout my process that have recently emerged again and I wanted to address them here.  One of them is my seeking and consumption of information. This is generally in relation to the Desteni Material and other channeled material that I've enjoyed in the past few years.  Now, from my perspective, there is nothing wrong with enjoying information/material shared by others, especially if/when it is to support yourself in your process of self-realization.  The starting point is the key and one question can reveal the starting point. Why am I consuming the information?  The experience of self can also reveal the starting point. Recently I started to feel overwhelmed and confused and lost a bit and with every interview/recording/article I would hear or read, I felt even more uncertain about myself. After talking with my partner about this, he mentioned, "you have been consuming a lot more information lately."  Indeed I have been and...

I recently shared that some words I was redefining and living for myself were Creator, Love, and Grace. Someone asked me to expand on how I live those words practically so I decided a blog would be the best place to do so. I'll start with Grace - this is a word that came up in a reading I recorded recently for my YouTube Channel - the point of Grace specifically in relation to a Swan and the feminine body. So for me, specifically at the moment, the word as a practical expression is in relation to my physical body.  As a Swan, I see them so graceful - gliding on water with such precision and elegance. There is such stillness yet fullness to them. Their necks are long and their movements so precise.  The actress Robin Wright is also another example of someone whose physical is the embodiment of Grace, as I see her - with her long neck and such a straight/upright, poised posture, she carries such length throughout her body, which creates what looks like spaciousness. Her movement...