Kristina's Journey to Life

I noticed at work a lot of reactions within my mind in relation to specific beings in my reality. The reactions were in the form of blame and anger and the more these thoughts/reactions were coming up - the more outwardly I expressed this anger as an expression of myself as my words and physical movement/behavior and allowed it to exist as me in who I was at work. Meaning - a co-worker was being playful with me and joking around and I was 'stuck' in this mode of anger because I was giving attention to what was going on within my mind that was anger and blame and resentment towards another. The 'another' was not physically in my environment so obviously this is the Mind at work, and it's points that have been surfacing over the last few weeks that I have made a point to write out for myself but have not gotten to it yet. And so I became angry and expressed this friction I was having within myself towards this other being in my actual, physical environment. I m...

For real this time, THIS is the final blog in this series I have been walking: Day 132 - Fear put my in my place Day 133 - Humbled by seeing and shamed by my blame - bringing the fear back to myself. Day 134 - The Anger I fear in Another is the Anger within Myself Day 135 - Seeing the Reflection of Myself Day 136 - Deceptive Denial of the Change Required Day 137 - Learning How to Love My-Self before I can Love my Neighbor Day 138 - A Word with the Power to Change Me Day 139 - From the Fear & Blame(Problem), back to Self(Solution) and the Reward When this moment happened, the one that I have been working with for the last 9 days, I was experiencing a lot of energetic influence. Meaning - when I stepped outside my house to either go to class or go to work or take out the trash, my thoughts were running about my neighbor, and what if I saw him, and what would happened and how would he act and how would I act and what if he can see me and what is he thinking, how is he feel...