Kristina's Journey to Life

What I've come to see, realize, and understand is that I am Worthy of Wealth because I was Born Wealthy.  The fact that I am breathing here, with a heart that pumps blood throughout my whole body, consistently, repeatedly, without doubt or question, assured... that tells me my worth.  I am worthy of being alive because I am.  I am worthy of this Earth because I am here.  I am worthy of Life because I was born.  I have been exploring this concept of wealth and money and worth lately - exploring ways to create more abundance and resources in my life and what I am coming to realize is that it's not about what's in my bank account, it's not about what paper I have to spend, it's not about that thing I am doing that will generate the flow I am looking for... It's about ME Realizing Who I really Am.  Because Who I really am is wealthy. Who I really am is rich in the truest sense, is worthy of everything because I AM everything! This idea that we have to work to g...

Let's continue with the redefining and living process of the word SPECIAL.  The sounding stage... this one has been in me for days.  The Spec in All. I am the speck in all.  Special.  Spesh all.  Bless all.  Special Space all Spacious.  There is enough room for everyone and everything to be special.  The speck in all. This is like the light within each one. The spark of Life. the Source/Cause/Origin of all. The God that is in All.  Not special - literally the same thing, that point that is us as ONE. What we all come from, what we all return to. The light that gives life to everything. The eternal flame, the point of equality and oneness. That One Principle. The One Directive. All as One as Equal.  That one Point.  There is no getting around that one point.  There is only one point. And everything stems from that One Point. We are One and the Same.  Special-ness is to get specific with who one is AS all that is - as the ON...

One of the most empowering moments in my life was when I heard the words 'you are responsible for yourself, and this world. What is 'out there', also exists within you. As within, so without.' This is a moment in my life I will never forget because it was understanding those words that I experienced things coming together for the first time in my life that actually made sense. All the previous knowledge, and information I had, all the ideas and beliefs I participated in, everything I wanted to know, but didn't  yet... was placed so perfectly in that understanding. My search was over. I had grown up to believe in God, initially the Catholic God, but really all the same in the context of religion. An almighty God that rewards those that are good, and punishes those that are bad. A god that sent a son for humanity to be saved, and through him we could be forgiven. My religious context of god evolved throughout my life to become more of a universal god - one that...

As I begin to write these words - I allow myself to see myself in every way possible. In all parts I have separated myself into and as as the Mind of alternate Realities. Through writing these words - I bring myself back to myself - back to the breath - back to the Physical - back to Life. As I write these words - I reveal to myself and all as me the Nature in which I have created myself. Separate from myself as Life. Within this - I start here. Walking through the Mind as the Personality I have believed myself to Be - and Back to the Real Me - that which exists here in this Physical Reality. This is my Walk back to Life - back to the Beginning - back into the Darkness from which I emerged. Removing all parts of myself that do not support me as Life - I stop the sounds of the Mind and bring myself back to Silence... Back to Nothing. From Here I will emerge again - from the Darkness as the Silence that is Here - Equal with myself in All ways Here as Life - Equality and Oneness Realized....

An interesting point I realized within walking FEARS They are ALWAYS based within Self Interest. Whether it's fear of others opinions of me, fear of a tree falling on my house - or fear of something happening to me - it's always about me. About my experience - about my feelings, about how I will react or do react. Fear is just another way we allow ourselves to exist within self interest - and not consider the whole. While we are busy within our own fears of our own survival - we fail to see the bigger picture that shows each and everyone of our fears manifesting. We fail to see what we are creating. So cool to walk through fears - facing the fears we have , as it is a way we take self responsibility for ourselves as this world. And for those that say.... "I don't fear anything" I call your bluff and dare you to be self honest. It is the best gift you can give to yourself as well as getting to a point of realizing what is Best for All. Investigate yours...

This week we as Destonians have began exposing and sharing ourselves within fears we have had throughout our lives. Some of them are funny - just the few I have shared.. I have laughed talking through it - because seeing it now, realizing fear is always self created and allowed, it's just funny to see what kind of things we allow to exist within us, such as fear. Many Destonians have taken on this point .. and a couple of points I want to make about this project. -Many of us, as Human beings, experience the exact same fears. This is a point of equality - how we believe within ourselves we are so different, so isolated, so distant and unlike each other - yet when we are able to be self honest.. we can see just how much we are a like - just how much equality actually exists. -Another cool point about this Project is once I speak about this fear... it's like it looses it's power it had over me. Whether the fear was major or slight, once it is brought up and out and i...

I just finished listening to " Portal Expanded Interdimensionally ". In this Interview - a child that dies from Leukemia speaks about he's experience here while on earth - and as he died and "crossed over" into the dimensions. He speaks about the questions he had while here in this world, like, why is he sick? Why do other children get to live a normal life? What's fascinating is that even as a small child - everyone around him was telling him that, "God has a greater purpose for you and heaven is waiting for you and you are special" And he could not accept this, imagine that... A child seeing through the deception of acceptance adults attempt to impose onto children about what this world is and why things are the way they are. He speaks about his death and what he found in "heaven" - how he didn't accept what was being shown to him - and returned to his body to see what was really going on. He found many other children with the s...

Where do I start? I suppose my whole life was leading to this point - where I face myself and this world in it's totality. I mean it's inevitable for us all to face the truth of ourselves - as we cannot continue on the path we are currently on - there has to be a change - whether we like it or not. Because in the End - Life is calling each one to wake up to the realization that we are here - we are responsible and we are the only ones to change ourselves/this world. No one can save us - no one can change us - we have to move ourselves and decide for ourselves what life is - who we are in relation to life and how life will be lived. As we can see currently - this thing we call life - is only self destruction. And so - we have to stop and re consider the path we are walking - and dare to do something that has never been done in all of the time humans have walked on this earth.... See each other and ourselves Equal. Live Equality and Oneness and stop waiting for an imaginary being...

Who here as heard the phrase, "Everything happens for a reason!"?? I know I have - and I have been the one preaching it. You didn't get the job... "everything happens for a reason" You're boyfriend left you... "everything happens for a reason" You couldn't buy that home... "everything happens for a reason" There are countless ways we have expressed this saying, "everything happens for a reason" From what I can see - in most cases it is used as a way to make people feel better about themselves - to not be hard on themselves - to not feel like they are 'left out of this cruel world' Behind it we can see it plays a part in keeping up in acceptance of a 'greater plan'. That no matter what happens in our lives - it was 'planned' to be and there is a reason it was. My boyfriend left me for my best friend... 'everything happens for a reason' The baby was born still born... 'everythi...

2012 is Here dom.. dom... dom... There is A LOT of hype around this year - so many beLIEfs - so many thoughts - so many ideas - so many fears - so many opinions - so many Human Beings lost in distraction of fantasy and illusion. The POINT is - this is just another year. And all the beliefs swirling around it - is just another way we distract ourselves from taking responsibility for what is HERE - as the current state of this world. Whether we BeLIEve jesus is going to return and save us - or it's aliens coming to clean up our mess - see it for what is actually is - A Means to keep ourselves BLIND to how we can actually change this world . There are so many angles one can take and challenge with common sense in terms of how people are holding/placing value on this year, 2012 - which I will do in many blogs to come. This is just a starter - to open the conversation and to start removing the blinders. What will it take for us to WAKE UP and see this doomsday prophecy o...

"I woke up hungry this morning so I read the word of god and was satisfied" Let us now as(k) a child or half the pollution that goes without food daily to do the same. Their bodies decaying from malnutrition while the rest of the population are blinded in ignorance of beliefs that only satisfy the protection of self interest. How can we exist in a World where we allow a God to be our 'filler' - an imaginary 'father' that promises a life of eternal peace, just so long as we ignore what is real in matter in our attempts to not take responsibility for what the world actually is. This God we believe to 'fill us up' by his words in some book - does not actually feed the hungry, save the poor, protect the innocent. Instead this God fills us with fear of burning forever if we are not his perfect little slaves spreading this deceit to the rest of the World. God is not the Solution - as Jesus said, Give unto another what you would like to Receive. D...

"We must stop confusing religion and spirituality. Religion is a set of rules, regulations and rituals created by humans, which was suppose to help people grow spiritually. Due to human imperfection religion has become corrupt, political, divisive and a tool for power struggle. Spirituality is not theology or ideology. It is simply a way of life, pure and original as was given by the Most High of Creation. Spirituality is a network linking us to the Most High, the universe, and each other…" Let's take a Self Honest look at what is being Said here and find a way to Consider it where it Considers what is Best for All... In the first part of this statement - the Person is exposing how Religion has become a Means to Control and enslave People - due to Humanity's "Imperfection" Then - the person goes on to explain how Spirituality is 'better' then Religion because apparently it is a 'way of life' given by 'the Most High of Creation'....

"Don’t worry, just breathe – If it is meant to be, it will find its way" This statement is all to familiar with me. You might have heard it in various ways - like, "Just go with the flow", or "if it's meant to be, it will be". Such statements and beliefs exist within the implication of a force outside of ourselves - guiding and directing and 'taken care of' everything for us. This statement also implies preprogramming - a predetermined destination that has already been created, and that we are just in it for the ride, and to just sit back and go along with whatever will come. I use to tell this to myself a lot. Relax, if it is suppose to happen, it will happen. It's what I told myself to re assure myself that 'everything is ok' - a way I used to keep myself content with my world and my reality, trusting in some higher force at play that will in the end provide for me that which I need. Then I found Desteni - and the self realiz...

Why do we believe in God? In a form 'higher then ourselves'? A power greater then us? All people believe in some from of greater being. Why? Why do we allow this? Is it Hope that theres something better for us - that this LIfe is just temporary - it's not real, that the real life is with god in the 'afterlife'? Why do we accept this belief? This lie that we make up in our minds. Maybe if we lived in a world where there was no need to survive, all was given for LIfe - such as food and water and shelter. If we lived in a System that supported EveryONE to be Here equally - where it didn't matter where you are from or how much money you have or dont have. The simple fact that You are HERE - gives you a right to LIFE. To live. To be provided for. If we lived in such a world - we would not need a belief in a god - of something greater - of a mystery we are trying to solve... wiating to see who is right and just holding on till we find out. We would be LIV...