Kristina's Journey to Life

Some interesting points come up today while I was doing self-forgiveness on my relationship to my stomach. As mentioned in the previous blog , it is one that has not been the nicest - resenting my stomach in a way,  blaming it for not adhering to the specific image I wanted, getting upset when it wasn't what I thought it 'should' be. So a relationship that has been tumultuous. TUMultuous... This opening up from some upset stomachs I've been having the past couple months - and to me, revealing a relationship with the stomach that required my attention. So with the self-forgiveness, two major points stood out to me. The first is how my relationship with my stomach was so nasty in fact, that I could see how I could, over time, in continuing to place expectations unto it, and the negative emotions I was experiencing toward it, would in fact create some serious problems. Imagine constantly being angry, resentful, hateful even towards a particular part of your body ... ...

Today I had a bit of an upset stomach after lunch. It came on quite quick after eating, and rendered me immobile for a couple of hours. This is the third time I've experienced this kind of pain in the past two months, this time being the most severe. The reason I am bringing this up in a blog is because while there is the physical symptom of something going on - my body processing something, and causing pain, there is other dimensions existing as well, which is the mental one. Often when I get sick, or don't feel absolutely stable within my physical body - even if it's the slightest bit of being uncomfortable, I usually react quickly. I will get frustrated, and feel like a victim, and feel like I cannot possible move to my utmost, and must simply give in to the experience, and in a way 'fall' within myself, like a giving up . Now obviously if there is physical pain, then yes, I'm not going to be able to perform to my optimum as the body is going through ...