Kristina's Journey to Life

 Yesterday's blog was quite cool and in general, the process of redefining the word STAR to make it a livable expression has been such a fun process to open up and find myself within. There's definitely a push to get real with me in terms of coming to terms with the potential I see in myself and how playing small really doesn't serve anyone.  When I started my process with the Desteni message and tools, I was a meek, shy, insecure, and seemingly insignificant being from my perspective. I was a whisp of a being. I had no standing within myself, no confidence, no direction, no sense of any kind of self-authority. I was lesser than everything, weak, defective and could not recognize myself as worthy of Life.  And this process allowed me to gift myself with such transformation and blossoming. My life has been blessed by this process and I am grateful to be here walking it still.  I do still experience doubt and fear but I've walked through enough of my mind and establish...

What would happen if each human being stood equal to and one with the Sun?  What does the sun represent? What does the sun express?  Grateful to a friend who pointed out the most important Star in relation to the Earth - Our Sun. Without it, Life on Earth would not be.  With it, life was possible.  It shines on everything equally. Imagine if all were to express as the Sun... what kind of world would we have?  I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from my expression as the sun that shines brightly and gives life equally to all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear standing as the sun as if to do so would be arrogant, egotistical or unnecessary instead of seeing, realizing, understanding, and embodying/living the knowledge that it is the one point that is required to once and for all give to all equally I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to stand inferior to the expression of th...

 I am sitting here asking myself what is the point I want to write about.  Nothing is really standing out at the moment. So I keep looking while also writing about the process.  Interesting how we can do both things at once. The writing is like waiting for a point. Perhaps I should just pick one.  You know there is a point I want to address but it's more personal and think it would best to walk it for myself privately first. For now - perhaps I will take on another word in the redefining living words process to keep things moving.  I did want to redefine the word ASCENSION because I have read enough books and been a part of enough communities that were asking questions such as "Who am I" and "Why am I here" to know that ascension is a point that is talked about, anticipated, resisted and overall open for discussion because well, it's a word. So why not address it and redefine it into a practical, living expression of life.  So the steps to redefining/living...

  It feels good to be sitting here and embarking on a new 30-day journey.  My Journey to Life, and specifically the Desteni Process, has gifted me with the most amazing awareness of who I am, my potential, and the best of Life still yet to be realized.  I took some time since my last entry (apparently it was my last lol) and have been exploring many things within myself and within this world to only find myself back att my roots... and the tools that have kept me the most grounded, stable, and directive in my life.  I have learned so much and yet still I see, realize, and understand that there is no greater power than Self-Responsibility. That is something I have proven to myself over and over again - and even when I think I really got it - there I go into blame again, suggesting that something outside of myself, some power apparently greater than me, is the cause/source/origin to my experience and life. It never is.  There is literally nothing else - there is o...

April 22, 2020 After 10 years I am still practicing perfecting this flow and consistency with blogging, to fulfill this commitment of the 7 years journey to life. We have a long way to go and I’m still here. I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to create consistency in my flow as my sharing as my blogging as my expressing I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to drop the ball on blogging where I let time go by where I am not directing myself to share me as my blogs I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize that I made a commitment to walk this 7-year journey to life – to write a blog for 7 years and that this point is still here I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to realize just because I drop something or stop something for a moment I was directing doesn’t mean I can’t pick it back up and the only reason I don’t is excuses I give myself to excuse me from fulfilling the commitme...

Continuing from the previous two recordings . I investigate deeper into some reactions towards an individual in my life, and how they acted as a trigger to open up more relationships I have developed towards the word punishment, and how it's manifested in this world. There is a lot to uncover if we don't accept our 'first impressions' and dare to SEE MORE of what's Here. The  Journey to Lifers Take Responsibility for what is HERE in/as this world, within AND without: Desteni DIP Lite Course  (FREE) DIP Pro Eqafe  (Self-Perfecting interviews, books, music, etc) For your Info: Destonian Wiki Equal Life Foundation SOUL (School of Ultimate Living)

This morning I woke up with some resistance/depression. Last night I went to bed with reactions – I was emotional around the point of having ‘nothing to do’ with my life – so again, the point of purpose and direction. I can see I am stilling missing ME – ME being the point of purpose, and direction, and stability. So I woke up with depression, and was not feeling great at all… but I kept moving. I did my morning stuff, and even pushed through a resistance towards doing Pilates. It’s like that point I saw recently in a blog , in which I’ve seen for myself as well…. Asking yourself the question, will you regret not doing it when you said you would? That type of question supports in seeing what you are accepting and allowing… and so I pushed through the resistance, knowing I would regret it if I gave into the resistance, and indeed feel better at the moment. More stability. So I am busy walking the to do list for today, and I realize that it’s a point of purpose I can gift to ...

In walking the Desteni I Process, the tools we have available are breathing , writing , self forgiveness, self commitment statements and self corrective application. In this blog I'm going to share my perspective and experience in relation to the corrective application. So what does 'self-corrective application' mean? It means, that after one has done their self-investigative writing about a particular reaction or behavior or pattern that one continually lives out, and applies the self forgiveness as taking back the self-responsibility one has to this particular living acceptance of self, then one takes it into the corrective application. Meaning - one takes it into real time /real living application. Let's look at an example - in a recent blog titled, "When Desire is Driving," I wrote about this desire energy that I have noticed comes up in certain experiences in my life, wherein once I have decided upon something, whatever it may be, I will go into th...

WRITING In the past – I participated within the Secret and the Law of Attraction and within this, believed ‘Love’ would conquer all things. I really actually believed Love would change this world and could change individuals – yet it was never within actual physical ways – it was based on an ‘idea’ and ‘feeling’ you had to posses to be ‘good’ and ‘lovely’ to others – within this, believe others would experience the ‘presence of love’ and change themselves. I never considered who I was within the Mind – how thoughts generate feelings and never dared to see within self honest my starting point for desiring the ‘feeling of love’ as a solution to this world. Within my starting point – I thought being “Love” was an easy solution. I did not have to take responsibility for myself, I just had to ‘feel good and share it with others’. I did not have to investigate my inner reality as the Mind – as through this idea of “Love being the answer to change the worlds’ I was in complete submission t...