Day 698 (Day 1 of 30) - A Fresh Start with Self-Responsibility

 

It feels good to be sitting here and embarking on a new 30-day journey. 

My Journey to Life, and specifically the Desteni Process, has gifted me with the most amazing awareness of who I am, my potential, and the best of Life still yet to be realized. 

I took some time since my last entry (apparently it was my last lol) and have been exploring many things within myself and within this world to only find myself back att my roots... and the tools that have kept me the most grounded, stable, and directive in my life. 

I have learned so much and yet still I see, realize, and understand that there is no greater power than Self-Responsibility. That is something I have proven to myself over and over again - and even when I think I really got it - there I go into blame again, suggesting that something outside of myself, some power apparently greater than me, is the cause/source/origin to my experience and life.

It never is. 

There is literally nothing else - there is only self-responsibility. 

That is the responsibility one has as a true creator, to take full responsibility for all of creation, from the micro to the macro.

So I am here to get back to the root of the issues I see I am still living out and expressing as if it's an acceptable part of myself. It really isn't and only keeps me in a diminished state. 

I can see the most effective moments in my life have been when I was blogging and sharing self-forgiveness consistently.

So here I am here, back to the basics and back to the truth of Who I Am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to take for granted the tools and practices that have allowed me to be the most stable and present in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abdicate even the slightest responsibility of my experience to another as suggesting something/someone outside of me is the cause/source/origin of my experience - that is to accept that something/someone outside of myself is greater than me and thus I am a victim to them and I know this is not true

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create myself to be a victim to another when I accept the idea that another is responsible or to blame for the experience of myself

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am the source/cause/origin of my life in fact and when I take responsibility for everything, I am standing in my full power and presence here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to blame another and to find pleasure in blaming another because I perceive myself to be more powerful than them when I get to blame instead of seeing, realizing and understanding how when I attempt to control another through blame I am already living the statement that "I am not powerful" and so I then try to gain power over another through blame

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I need to manipulate and control another through blame in attempting to be more powerful instead of seeing, realizing, and understanding I am already the power I am attempting to get/receive from another

I forgive myself that I have not yet allowed myself to see, realize and understand that I am already the power I wish to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the word power in thinking and believing it's something that I must get from another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I am powerless in relation to others and so then want to manipulate and control them to apparently get my power back

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my power by thinking and believing I am not powerful and so have to get power from another

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to perceive power as something greater than me here

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire being powerful from the perspective of lack without seeing/realizing and understanding that the end is in the beginning and when my starting point is of lack, I create only more lack

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create and express myself from a starting point of lack

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I am without anything of who I really am

I forgive myself that I have not yet allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that I have created a process of realization for myself because I have accepted and allowed an idea that I am lacking something and so much re-gain something I apparently don't have

I forgive myself that I have not yet allowed myself to disengage, remove, and delete all beliefs of lack that exist within/as me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a way where there is even the slightest of movement within me that suggests someone else is in the wrong/bad and I am in the right/good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create polarity through defining others as wrong/bad and myself as right/good

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in a state of this or that which creates polarity such as powerful and powerless, inferior and superior instead of seeing/realizing/understanding all that is here as all as one as equal is me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge another and within this to think/believe I am in the right instead of seeing/realizing/understanding that I am only blaming and judging myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame and judge another that is myself

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand another is me and who I am in relation to another is who I am with me in fact

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to take full responsibility for who I am with me as all as one as equal

When I see myself reacting in judgment/blame toward another, I stop and breathe. 

I see, realize, and understand that in blaming/judging another, I am abdicating the responsibility I have to me as all as one as equal, as the cause/source/origin of life in fact, and thus creating polarity as the statement that I am powerless/without/lacking and so I must gain power from another who I perceive to be greater than me through manipulation and control of them. 

I commit myself to seeing/realizing/understanding that all is me and so who I am with others is who I am with me and I commit myself to treat myself, as all, the way I want to be treated

I commit myself to love myself as all as one as equal

I commit myself to taking full responsibility as the source/cause/origin of/as life

I commit myself to stop all blame and judgment towards myself and so towards all life as me

I commit myself to the process and tools which produce real stability and freedom

I commit myself to myself as all as one as equal.