Kristina's Journey to Life

For today - the point of believing you are letting go of a relationship from the past, yet you actually aren't because you are still thinking and imagining things about them - as well as the dishonesty we dwell in when we say things in our minds to others that we would not say to their face. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to back chat about others in my life, imagining what I would say to them in various situations, or based in certain contexts - but stemming from one interaction with them that I then attempt to gain the upper hand/position I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be dishonest with myself by thinking I am letting go of a relationship /person in my life but then continue to hold on to them as back chat conversations in my mind about/towards them I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be manipulated by the mind, by myself, and others as abdicating one's responsibility and accountability for ...

Ok, so resuming the previous point I was walking through with self forgiveness and self corrective statements, this is continuing from these previous blogs: Day 122 - Walking through a Moment of Irritation part 1 Day 123 - Memories Fueling Reactions part 2 Day 124 - Part 3: A Moment filled with Many Dimensions Day 125 - Part 4: Forgiving the Voices in my Head Day 126 - Part 5: Correcting the Voices in my Head Day 127 - Part 6: Forgiving and Correcting the Imagination Day 128 - Part 7: Forgiveness for being a Reactive Robot Day 129- Part 8: Correcting the Reactions Day 130 - part 9: Forgiveness & Correction: The Mind Moving the Body Day 131 - Part 10: The Consequences of What I Allow in a Moment Since I have walked through the various dimensions I had identified in this moment with A, what is left is the memory in which was feeding and fueling this reaction within me, so specifically from Day 123 - Memories Fueling Reactions part 2. I forgive myself that I have accept...

Before I came across Desteni - I had placed myself in a peculiar situation in my Life. At the time, I was in a relationship of over 2 years. We both were placed in a peculiar situation where a decision had to be made. I made my choice.. and he made his. We were in disagreement. It was easy for him to 'talk me out of it' and I, in the end, decided to go along with his decision. It was a decision I would later regret... and this is where I found Self Forgiveness. It was almost or just over a year since me and my boyfriend made a decision within our relationship that altered it's course forever. If we had chose to go the other route - things would be much different. However, we didn't, and here I was... hating myself. Constantly thinking about what I did within the decision we made - how much I regretted it and thinking about what would be if I chose the other way. Constantly these thoughts came up - over and over and over again.. and I could not stop myself fro...