Kristina's Journey to Life

A point of doing things/tasks/responsibilities throughout my day for reasons of self interest as self definition I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to measure who I am according to the things I ‘complete’ and get done/through in a day I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to do things in my day simply because it is necessary to be done and without energetic expectations as feedback that feed my self interest I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that the more I do in a day the better a being I am and within this think that if I am doing enough things then I am worthy of life and worthy of myself within my own process I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe there are specific things that I must do within a day and if I do not do these things then I am a failure and then become afraid of being this definition I have imposed on myself revealing that my starting point for be...

This is the final blog is the series I have been walking: Day 132 - Fear put my in my place Day 133 - Humbled by seeing and shamed by my blame - bringing the fear back to myself. Day 134 - The Anger I fear in Another is the Anger within Myself Day 135 - Seeing the Reflection of Myself Day 136 - Deceptive Denial of the Change Required Day 137 - Learning How to Love My-Self before I can Love my Neighbor Day 138 - A Word with the Power to Change Me I was looking through the previous blogs I have written the last week, wherein I was taking on a particular moment that I reacted within myself in relation to another and see that I have walked through all the points I laid out for myself to take responsibility for in forgiving and correcting; re-scripting myself in 'how to live' from  here on out in order to no longer allow myself to accept the uncontrollable reactions I had experienced. This was a very cool point for me to go through/investigate/forgive and ultimately...

This blog is in relation to a point I see within myself, wherein I will 'need' something, such as a motivation, to move myself. Specifically it's when I am faced with a resistance to do something, and I have, in that moment a choice to make - either walk through the wall I have created, or give in, accept it and just give up on the task at hand, in the moment. I can see where, one of the "reasons" or motivations I use to "push through the resistance" is a reward for completing a task, such as "feeling good about myself for getting this thing done". I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to create a positive energetic experience within myself of "feeling good about myself" when I am faced with a resistance to doing/completing something, as a reason/purpose for me to get this thing done - instead of it being a decision within and as myself as self honesty of what is required to be done in the moment I forgive myse...