Kristina's Journey to Life

Another aspect or dimension I see in relation to this point of ‘words without awareness’ is how I will repeat what another person says, yet it’s within a point of judgment or making fun (with the intention of being innocent/playful) or accentuate what I hear within their words – so it’s like I will repeat what another person has said as a way to poke fun or something. Yet it doesn't make much sense to me, like there is no real purpose for this point, it has no point really. It’s just a personality play out that I have developed in relation to interactions with others. I see it almost as if I see/ experience /feel as though I am inferior to another and so in attempting to polarize this point to be at the opposite position, or not diminished, I will go into this ‘repeating words’ point as to exert some kind of power or control… something… it really doesn't make much sense to me actually. Like I do not understand why I do that, and in the moment immediately after speaking th...

This is a continuation of: Day 122 - Walking through a Moment of Irritation part 1 Day 123 - Memories Fueling Reactions part 2 Day 124 - Part 3: A Moment filled with Many Dimensions Day 125 - Part 4: Forgiving the Voices in my Head Day 126 - Part 5: Correcting the Voices in my Head Day 127 - Part 6: Forgiving and Correcting the Imagination So here I will continue the self forgiveness and self corrective statements for the dimension of reaction identified in this moment I have been busy walking through. Reactions Anger, annoyance, irritation, blame, judgment I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist as an automatic reaction robot in a moment with A, wherein I reacted within and as anger to/towards her for her movements and words, realizing that it was all based on past experiences as memories with her and thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to allow the past experiences as memories be stored within me as my  mind an...