Kristina's Journey to Life

A point of living/being/doing for outside sources always leads to dissatisfaction and is abdication of self responsibility... all sorts of unnecessary self created experiences - best to bring it back to self and GIVE to self that which we expect to find in others, outside and separate from ourselves here I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to live for me but to instead look for external stimulation, outside sources and separate motivation to push me to move, to live, to change - instead of living for me, realizing that when I am in the starting point of "doing/living" for others, for outside reasons and sources, within anticipation and expectation, I am never satisfied, I am never fulfilled because within that I am living the statement that I 'need' something outside of me to live, I 'need' something to motivate and push me to change, I 'need' something separate from myself that apparently has power over me to direct me wit...

Today I was working on a Lesson within the Agreement Course I am walking within the Desteni I Process - and within this lesson, I saw how much I have allowed myself to be 'moved by energy'. Obviously - this is the process we are walking.. to stop allowing energy to move us as we can clearly see this implies something is having to move us - live for us, decide for us, instead of taking self responsibility to move ourselves, direct ourselves, to Live! So this is a general point I am going to address within this blog of Journey to Life - allowing energy to move me instead of me moving myself I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be moved by energy I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to define myself 'as energy' and thus allow it to move me instead of me moving me I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to generate energy within myself through the act of thinking, wherein I generate emotions and feelings a...

As I begin to write these words - I allow myself to see myself in every way possible. In all parts I have separated myself into and as as the Mind of alternate Realities. Through writing these words - I bring myself back to myself - back to the breath - back to the Physical - back to Life. As I write these words - I reveal to myself and all as me the Nature in which I have created myself. Separate from myself as Life. Within this - I start here. Walking through the Mind as the Personality I have believed myself to Be - and Back to the Real Me - that which exists here in this Physical Reality. This is my Walk back to Life - back to the Beginning - back into the Darkness from which I emerged. Removing all parts of myself that do not support me as Life - I stop the sounds of the Mind and bring myself back to Silence... Back to Nothing. From Here I will emerge again - from the Darkness as the Silence that is Here - Equal with myself in All ways Here as Life - Equality and Oneness Realized....