Kristina's Journey to Life

I took a slight detour from the previous series I was walking in relation to where I placed my security, confidence and assurance. For context, you can read all the blogs in the series: 304: Is there a Cure for Insecurity? 305: CONsequences of Insecurity 306: Removing the Illusion of the Beauty System 307: 'The Look' of Limitation 308: The First Mistake we Make in Relationships This blog specifically is the self corrective statements for the most recent blog within this point, 309: Giving Me Security When and as I see myself looking outside of me here, for a sense of security, confidence and assurance through/as a relationship with another, in their words or actions, I stop and I breathe and do not allow myself to continue participating in this search as I see/realize/understand that I am missing the point of me here as the point that is to be established as self secure, self confident and self assured and so I commit myself to stop myself when/as I see myself e...

Okay - so here I will go into the self forgiveness for the points mentioned in the previous blog - expecting security in relationships. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to enter into an relationship within an expectation to find security, confidence and assurance I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that I will find security, confidence and assurance within relationships I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the Living Words of security, confidence and assurance and so within this, project it 'out there' unto a relationship and think and believe that's where it exists I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to con myself into believing that a relationship can give to me a sense of security, assurance and confidence I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to expect my relationship to give me security, confidence and as...

Insecure. That is the word I would use to describe the experience I've had in the last few days. Here I am going to deconstruct my relationship to this word and how I've lived it throughout my life , as I see it's a word, I've defined and thus LIVE as a living word. First, I'll start with the definition of the word - insecure: :  not confident or sure :  uncertain :  not adequately guarded or sustained :  unsafe  :  not firmly fastened or fixed :  shaky  a :  not highly stable or well-adjusted  b :  deficient in assurance :  beset by fear and anxiety Well hello, story of my life. Although I have seen changes within me and my overall experience within myself and within my life the last few years, with the support of the Desteni Process - I can see how throughout my life and here now, coming through quite predominantly, this experience of being 'insecure'. In se...