Kristina's Journey to Life

**Here I am opening up/discovering points within me in relation to 'speaking words without awareness'. So some self forgiveness/writing to freedom - understanding more of the point through self forgiveness. Something I have noticed the last few days is this point of speaking words and sentences that clearly are without awareness. It's like I will say something that has no reason or purpose or function or intention or direction - it's like words are just coming out of my mouth because they can, yet there is no real awareness within them at all. It's more like I am speaking to 'fill the gap' or to add noise or to become some kind of character or personality that is looking to be fulfilled with the words I speak - so depending on how I am defining myself in a particular moment, who I am around, the type of 'mood' I am in - I will say certain things, but it's like all ego talk. There is really no awareness or reason, as I've already writt...

So continuing on from the previous posts: Day 132 - Fear put my in my place Day 133 - Humbled by seeing and shamed by my blame - bringing the fear back to myself. Day 134 - The Anger I fear in Another is the Anger within Myself Day 135 - Seeing the Reflection of Myself Ok, yesterday I began the self forgiveness process of the points that I identified from a moment of reacting towards another. Was cool to see through this process of the 'point' within/as the relationship with myself that I was acting out towards others, in how I was judging myself for not 'getting it' - certain points within my process as/and bits of knowledge and information - how within this, judging myself and actually being angry at myself for not in an instant understanding/ seeing /realizing the complexity and simplicity of such points, within myself and within this world. So cool to 'bring it back to myself' in seeing that how I was existing within/as the relationship with myself...