Kristina's Journey to Life

Thanks to those that reached out after reading my previous blog - I appreciate your support very much. It was touching to hear from so many of you about what we've been going through. I did want to share that while the previous blog was perhaps on the heavier side, really laying down the experience we walked in losing the pregnancy, I would like to say that I did mourn and grieve and my ability to share is a reference for me that I am at a place of acceptance and understanding with it. I don't blame anything or anyone and I don't feel strong regret or shame... I've accepted it's happened and allowed myself to embrace it as now part of my journey that I can learn and grow from and share with others to hopefully support them to realize that yes, we must grieve, but we can also turn such tragedies into gifts.  My ability to grieve and mourn in the way that I did, and in the pace I did, I say gives credit to this process I've been walking for a decade now....

I listened to an old recording from Eqafe , first published in 2008, and had a moment of a breakdown/breakthrough. I was listening to a being share about how standing in the interdimensional/heaven existence, and there being nothing and no one there... only self. You, alone with you. At this moment I began to cry because I realized the amount of separation I have allowed myself to participate with - all the anger and resentments and blame and criticism I've been projecting outward and onto others for years.... in this moment I realized it was me, equal and one. There is, in fact, no separation, we are not separate... we are whole. We are Equal. We are One. And in the realization of this, I broke down because I've seen the extent of my hate and anger towards all as myself. How much I pushed others as myself away, how I much I saw others as myself different or in eyes of judgments. How much I neglected to see the equality in all of us. This being sharing their experience o...