Kristina's Journey to Life

Have you ever had that experience where you KNOW what another person is thinking, or feeling , or experiencing? And from this KNOWING, you direct yourself in a certain way? Or really, it's not even about you directing yourself, when one interprets how another is experiencing themselves, one then is influenced by this interpretation. Which really is just an assumption . Let me explain a bit better. Recently I've noticed this point within me of where I will assume to know what another it thinking and feeling and experiencing. And what is most interesting about this assumption/interpretation is that it is always in relation to Me. Where I think I know how one is experiencing themselves in relation to me, and from this, will be influenced by this idea or interpretation of what I think I know they are experiencing in relation to me. Sounds kind of like a mess, doesn't it? Well it is. What I was supported to see today was that when I interpret what another person is ...

I am continuing here from Day 175: The Implication of Needing Assurance and yesterday's blog, 177: Who Defines Me as Acceptable or Not? What I have been seeing is the self abuse I inflict on myself in seeing myself as inferior to another being - in how I go into self judgments and worry and doubting myself because of how I see/define another being as superior to me. So I want to just go into self forgiveness for the experience I had that opened these points up and see what else is here: I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from another being in seeing them as superior to me and within this define myself as inferior to them and through this acceptance of seeing/perceiving - allow myself to go into fear when communicating with this being - wherein I will judge myself as not good enough and not smart enough and not worthy enough and so within this go into fear of doing something 'wrong' in it not being what I am suppose to do ...

Here I'm going to have a look at a positive and negative experience I had. Yesterday's blog I was writing about how 'cool' it was that I saw myself able to breathe through moments of resistance and I basically was hyping myself up on 'being able to change' and within this, I can only now see that I was defining myself within a positive charge, because I defined the experience of breathing through those moments as positive - I was being positive, I felt good for doing that. Today however, lol - what the polarity experience. And this set of warning signs. So what I am seeing is that I so unconditionally accept the 'positive' experiences I have, such as defining 'breathing through resistance' as positive, and do not question this, simply accept this positive feeling /experience because hey - it feels good. However, today when I went into a negative experience of like literally falling and I was trying to grab a hold of the ledge before I fe...