Kristina's Journey to Life

Every type of spiritual texts or channeled material or body of work that relates to the self and the development of the self, I've come across states the same thing... S L O W  D O W N. Slow down.  Move slower. Take more time to consider and reflect. Stop moving so fast.  And with having this knowledge for all these years, and having practiced it here and there, I can see there is still this rushness to "get on" with it - on to the next action, the next moment, the next step in the process of a day.  As I got up this morning and preparing to take my hour in the office before I start the day with the kids (my partner and I have set up a specific schedule for us so that I may have some time for me before the day starts and before he works for the day) - and I was stepping out of the RV and walking across the yard to our tiny house while my coffee spilled with each step I took, I reflected on my state of being.  I was rushing. I was moving fast. I was quick to get ...

In continuing from yesterdays post , the first thing that I see required attention from looking it over was this point of 'where I was' when coming to the intersection where I required to make a left hand turn. What I see is that the last week, as I said in the previous blog, was a lot of things coming up within my mind that I have allowed myself to be distracted by and not utilize the tool and even responsibility I have to breathe - always bringing myself back to/as awareness within breathing because what I can see from this point of 'where I was' or 'have been' in the last week is within my mind and thus not breathing. And so 'losing touch' with actual, physical reality which is where self awareness exists. So in this moment I laid out for myself yesterday, it's clear my first mistake was not being disciplined in my application of breathing. I did not consider the normal way of how to proceed when one is in the middle of the intersection to...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not want to let go of a moment in allowing a moment to end and a new moment to begin – as a breath, breathing in and breathing out and letting go of what was here but is now gone and so embracing the new moment of what is here I forgive myself that I Have accepted and allowed myself to define some moments as better or more special than others, where depending on what I am doing in a specific moment or who I am with or where I am and how I respond so that moment, in terms of how I react to it as either being positive or negative and thus how I feel about it – not want to let it go – so here defining some moments I share with others as better than when I am alone and thus not wanting to go into the alone moment and instead hold onto the shared moment because within that I define it as positive and fear of it ending I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not walk each moment as embracing what is here ...