Kristina's Journey to Life

My summer school semester is coming to an end with one week left. The follow week I am going on holiday and the other night I kept waking up with the experience of fear and thoughts of the trip and fearing things were not settled and I would go on the trip not being prepared or missing something that I should have done before I left. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my upcoming trip/holiday in feeling like I am not prepared I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my upcoming trip/holiday because I fear I will not be prepared or have everything that I need – I think I will miss something or forget something I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to go into a state of fear when considering my upcoming trip yet within this not have a valid reason as to why I should be experiencing fear I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to quickly get to the day I will be going on my trip y...

This post is in relation to a point I experienced wherein I was judging my life and my day to day routine as boring, without the awareness of the impact my actions have in living consistency and stability. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my life as boring I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge my day to day living as boring I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be so addicted to the energies of highs and lows that I produce through thinking and occupying myself with my mind, that i have defined being here, breathing and committing to daily responsibilities that are best for me to be boring I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to desire the energies I produce with the act of thinking wherein I become consumed and possessed by thoughts , feelings , emotions , memories, future projections - all things self interested in pursuing my happiness, that when I stop and living day...