Kristina's Journey to Life

Continuing with the Napping Distractions and some words to support myself to correct/change the pattern and relationship I've created towards it I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to create a relationship towards sleeping/napping that is a point of distraction within my life I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use napping within a starting point of self interest and not as physical support as rest for my physical body when/as it's required I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use sleeping/napping as a way in which to avoid, hide out, run away and essentially, not take responsibility for myself in this Life and in this World and simply, each of my days I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to use sleeping/napping as a point of distraction from not becoming self directive in all things in my life I forgive myself that I've accepted and allowed myself to define sleeping as...

The other night I had a dream. I was in the basement and Ollie, (my cat ), was down there with me. Neko (our dog) was being let in from outside and he comes running towards Ollie. I grabbed Ollie and struggled to keep Neko away form him as he was trying to bite him. In a moment, I didn’t want to fight anymore, and I let myself relax and stopped fighting against Neko and he bite into Ollie. I heard Ollie scream and this shocked me back into fighting to protect him. I woke myself up yelling, “Neko, No!” My heart was racing and I was scared. After looking at this dream, I wondered why I gave up the fight because it was like I actually didn't care what happened to Ollie. I just didn't want to fight anymore, I wanted to relax. It was like I fed Ollie to Neko. Within this – how I interpret this dream is how I have been living the last few months. Slowly accumulating a desire to give up – already giving up on myself and no longer wanting to fight against myself as the mind – where ...

"Be willing to dream, and imagine yourself becoming all that you wish to be. Keep in mind the basic axiom -- all that now exists was once imagined. It follows then that what you want to exist for you in the future must now be imagined." This very cool exposure of self interest that exists within Humanity currently expressed in the above statement was made by Dr. Wayne Dyer. I once followed his words - looking for guidance in my own life - busy with trying to find my bliss and how I could be more happy/content with who I am here. It made sense to me when participating in 'the secret' = where I believed I had access to exclusive knowledge and information that could transform me and my world into one that I could LOVE and enjoy. The Dr. made sense to me - as he gave me words that validated me own pursuit of happiness. Such as the one above. Now that I can see with real eyes - I would like to show you how I can see this statement when applied to this REAL World - t...