Kristina's Journey to Life

Don't be so quick to assume what you experience on a conscious level of your own mind is the real story, and don't be so quick to quit when you are not seeing the results you are looking for in anything you do. This process, life , understanding yourself, developing yourself, changing yourself, creating yourself takes TIME and so within that, our patience to see it through completely. The  Journey to Lifers Take Responsibility for what is HERE in/as this world, within AND without: Desteni DIP Lite Course  (FREE) DIP Pro Eqafe  (Self-Perfecting interviews, books, music, etc) For your Info: Destonian Wiki Equal Life Foundation SOUL (School of Ultimate Living)

A pattern I see myself live out time and time again is this point of moving within a certain responsibility or task, commitment or decision on a particular project and what I will do is go into the point motivated and with energy as thinking "I can do this - this will be fun and easy and I see it's cool support for me" - yet what happens is the energy as the reaction to the imagination of actually doing it and thinking how I will feel about it when it's done is like the whole play out in the mind that I then settle on and thus do not actually manifest in my reality - I don't actually live out/walk through/complete the things I set forth for myself, instead I accept them as the internal reality I see for myself and within that become satisfied as if that is real or actually living - clearly it is not. The problem here I see is the starting point from which I move into these points/projects/commitments as an energetic high of feeling positive about doing the th...

A point I would like to write about came up  while I was reading Rozelle's JTL blog Misaligned Word Definitions and Miscommunication . In this blog she is describing communication between her and her partner and because of an unclear understanding of a word , there was confusion that could have lead into conflict in the interaction and would probably have produced an unwanted outcome in the relationship-agreement. While I was reading this I was reminded of a moment I had with my partner the other day. He was in a position of wanting to express certain points/ experiences within himself in relation to our agreement-relationship and because of my unwillingness to take responsibility for myself, for my experience/reactions, Because what he had to share in communication, I was taking personally - this lead to an outcome/interaction that was unnecessary and unwanted. This could potentially lead to an idea that one cannot share openly/honestly with another in fear of how one m...

A point here is resistance for writing my blog tonight - specifically because I opened a new point in yesterday's blog in regards to communication in the work place and my participation and lack of awareness/responsibility for the words I have been speaking and the words I have not been speaking in terms of being directive and standing within the principles I see are best for all. So the resistance is in relation to seeing this 'new point' with 'many dimensions' and so then I project in my mind the imagination/play out that it will be a 'long process' and I 'don't know where to start' in terms of 'taking on' the points revealed in my writing. I see this resistance has been building over time in my writing process, where I have had these back chats of "this will take too long" or "I don't know where to start" and "there are too many points that I am not seeing" and "I might miss a point/something...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to cage myself within the experience of myself of how I perceive reality I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to limit myself to the reactions and experiences I have to/towards people and situations in my life,k believing that the reactions and experiences within myself as mind are my self as who I really am and thus - limiting myself to only those reactions/experiences and believing it cannot be anything other then that I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give value to the imaginary world of the mind where I exist within fear and reactions to others and my world through accepting this within/as myself and allow this to direct me – instead of realizing it is ALL FAKE – as the reactions I have are the acceptances and allowances I have built in order to survive in this world – they do not actually support me to Live or to be Life – they only limit me here as who I am as the expression of life I forgi...