Day 63 - My Inner War with Canada
(From Aug 8th, 2012) Today, my brother, his girlfriend and I went into Canada. While we were there, I saw myself comparing a lot of it to America – and had this “my country is better’ character as me. Where I was like, “fuck Canada, this is lame, let’s go home ” – so Identifying myself as an “American” and within that comparing America to Canada as being better, and so seeing myself as better being an American. This sense of feeling more comfortable within the US – obviously it’s what I am familiar with. Yet – seeing the illusory lines that separate countries and people from people – I was participating in this ‘role’ as playing the character of “American” I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself as an American, where I believe “my country” is better then others I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge Canada based on the city I saw, and within that defining America as ‘better’ I forgive myself that I have accepted a...