Kristina's Journey to Life

Here a point of reaction when being 'exposed' as in facing myself - in seeing how I was behaving,who I was in relation to others, what I was accepting and allowing and from what starting point - that of being self interest. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to react to not receiving a reply back from another as the thoughts of “I fucked up, I know I fucked up and now I am embarrassed” I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to judge myself for the way I played out the relationship with another I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience feelings of embarrassment for being exposed, to myself, and to others about how I was existing within self interest in my communication with another I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being exposed as a manipulator and now fear another hates me I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear how another perceives m...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others in my reality finding me online – finding my writings and seeing my participation within desteni and support of an equal money system – and judging me and seeing me differently then how the saw me before I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself into the ‘kristina in the physical reality’ and ‘kristina on the internet’ – as if it is 2 different people, instead of realizing the same application of who I am online is who I am in person, thus not to fear exposing to othes what I am exposing to myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as being ‘different’ and assume others will judge me for my participation within blogs and vlogs and the various sharing sites – instead of realizing this is of the mind as ego in attempt to protect the self definition that secures is position within society as being ‘acceptable’ – I stop this desire to be accepted and re=commit m...

SO this weekend was the Desteni America Meeting. It was a very cool experience being with others that are Standing and applying and Living the Same Principles, and who are going through the same points. AND being around others willing to open up and share what it is that's being experienced, without fear was so cool. Much support was offered this weekend, not with the intentional offering of support - but just by communicating and sharing one's experience, I was able to relate to a lot of what was said, and assisted me in realizing it's not just me going through points within myself - I'm not the only one 'facing myself'. We all have a secret world within ourselves/as our Minds - it's just whether we are willing to expose it to ourselves and others. So it was cool to hear others stories of what they have gone through, what experiences they have in relation to reactions and points that come up and to realize that I'm not alone. And there is no reason ...