Day 52-Facing Manifested Consequences of a Decision Made in Fear part 1
I was just going through some pictures C… and at the end of the roll – there were many pictures of her dog. I fell guilty after seeing them, as I have defined his life as something that could be better. I think he doesn’t get enough attention and doesn’t get out enough and feels alone. I fear I have created an unhappy dog as I put him in the care of someone that abuses animals.. and now he is aggressive towards people. The guilt also that I could do more for him – but I don’t, as I feel busy all the time and that I have barely any time to take care of myself. I feel like C has given up on him.. and she doesn’t give him any attention. He just sits in his house. There are moments I wished that I did not have cats, as he is quick to attack them – and so I would then take him and care for him. Yet I know it’s quite a responsibility – and there is anger towards C for taking him in/on and not living up to it. Not giving him a quality life. I realize this are all projections of myself.. and...