Kristina's Journey to Life

Continuing here from the previous blog post, I will walk myself through some self forgiveness and corrective statements as well as commitments I will make for myself in supporting myself to bring myself back to the starting point from which I will move, for/as me/self here. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let go of the priorities within my life because of desire for relationship I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to believe that a relationship is more important that that which I can see are priority and important to me in this life , in my life I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to be willing to sacrifice that which I want to live in this world just for a relationship with another I forgive myself that i Have accepted and allowed myself to not realize that who I am as the relationship with myself will reflect any relationship I have with another and so I forgive myself that i Have not allowed myself to...

In the last, I would say almost year, I can see just how much I allow myself (and have always allowed myself) to become possessed and obsessed within the energy as desire for relationship. And despite the knowledge that I have regarding relationships, and how they are so effectively reflective of ourselves, I have still attempted and pushed for a relationship with another in many avenues. There was no physical consideration, or direct communication or getting to know someone for real, there was only the energy of desire directing me to ‘get what I want’ because ‘I want it now’. Obviously I missed the key point – LIVING the knowledge, as without the physical living application, knowledge is useless. So while I KNOW that an intimate relationship with myself is the ONLY way to create an intimate relationship with another, I have attempted to ignore this crucial point in search for my self interest. In my search, I have not seen /realized/understood that while I am busy looking ou...