Kristina's Journey to Life

Sharing forgiveness on a point that my dog actually communicated to me... and where I am still allowing my wants to override the needs of another... revealing a point where I am not pushing to live what is best for all in fact. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel guilty in relation to my dog as seeing her need to be more active and not accommodating it for her I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to do the bare minimum when it comes to exercising my dog, and to within this, allow myself to wallow in guilt for not giving her more when I see she needs more I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not change myself in order to accommodate what's best for all I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to walk the line of what's best for all and what's best for me in terms of doing what I am comfortable with, or only pushing the limits a little bit, but to not go beyond what I want to do...

This blog is in relation to 'past memories' of 'who I was' and what I accepted and allowed within interacting with others. There is regret when looking at these memories, for who I was, what I did and what I didn't do. Even for how I judged the other person and allowed these judgments to direct me in ending the relationship . So regret for who I was in a past relationship/interaction with another for accepting and allowing my mind as thoughts , feelings , emotions , and judgments to direct me in making the decision to stop contact with this being. It was all self interest - only considering myself in the interaction/ relationship - not being self honest about my experience, only accepting the way I was and not at all considering to communicate about it with the other person. Very selfish, as I was acting out within what I wanted or did want, what I felt or didn't felt and what I wanted to do or didn't want to do - it was all about me, again - not ...