371: A Moment When Self-Judgment Began
Recently I have been facing/seeing more and more the self-judgments that I seem to allow to prohibit me in every aspect of my life . Whether it's work, social interactions, an online presence, or in my relationships , self-judgments seem to be the one point I allow to keep me diminished and locked down into a specific stance of inferiority wherein the ability to move me, in whatever it is I decide to do, is hindered by this idea of me that "I'm just not good enough." I see how much these judgments effect my ability to move me, such as a fear that no matter what I do, it will always be no good; like I will always come up short, missing something, and somehow worse than the 'other guy.' So perhaps if my starting point was based in equality and oneness , and not competition as separation, this experience would not exist. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define myself according to the judgments I make about me/all aspects of me...