Kristina's Journey to Life

Some interesting points come up today while I was doing self-forgiveness on my relationship to my stomach. As mentioned in the previous blog , it is one that has not been the nicest - resenting my stomach in a way,  blaming it for not adhering to the specific image I wanted, getting upset when it wasn't what I thought it 'should' be. So a relationship that has been tumultuous. TUMultuous... This opening up from some upset stomachs I've been having the past couple months - and to me, revealing a relationship with the stomach that required my attention. So with the self-forgiveness, two major points stood out to me. The first is how my relationship with my stomach was so nasty in fact, that I could see how I could, over time, in continuing to place expectations unto it, and the negative emotions I was experiencing toward it, would in fact create some serious problems. Imagine constantly being angry, resentful, hateful even towards a particular part of your body ... ...

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe throughout my Life that I need to be in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that life is not complete unless I am in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define living Life as being in a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to ignore myself and thus seek myself separate from myself here through seeking a relationship with another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within self judgment of myself so much that I did and would not be alone and thus always seek out a potential partner wherein I could hide from myself within the relationship and not have to face the fear I had of being alone - within all of myself here I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear being alone and thus exist within the starting point of fear when entering a r...