Kristina's Journey to Life

A continuation from the previous blogs in relation to family... more points of consideration opening up of what it means to stop the generational family lines, to have it end with me and to be the key for the children to usher in heaven on earth. I've heard the old must go before the new can step forth. As a parent, we must stop/end the old as the patterns that have been past down from past lives and the children are the new - the clean slate, the fresh start, a clear starting point to create from. I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not see, realize, and understand that I have a responsibility to the future generations and to this world wherein who I am as bringing children into this world will determine the kind of world that is created and I am either carrying on and passing onto the next generation the sins of the father or principles that will create a world that's best for all I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to...

I grew up in the States. To say our history is full of racism is an understatement. We perhaps have one of the most brutal histories regarding racism that has played out even in the last 100 years. We also had some of the greatest thinkers and activists that were Men and Women diminished and targeted just because of their skin color but rose up to become influential, even in my own life, despite it. And yet some of them, while making quite an impact in our world, still did not make it out alive. It's Black History Month in the States. Part of me thinks it's a shame we have to have a month to celebrate and remember Black History because in reality there is only One History and that we should recognize and remember year round the generations of abuse and torment Americans have put itself and each other through to ensure we once and for all stop it and do not repeat it or to not forget those that stood from it. Our History was brutal, and it involves all colors. And perhaps ...

So I have completed this journey in which I placed for myself - walking in bringing myself back to breath for the past 21 days. As I've mentioned and as some who read this know - breath is key in birthing self as life, as letting go of ego, of remaining here as the real reality, standing here as the constant expression without self interest or expectations. So this is a process in which I push myself to walk every moment, yet I took myself on this journey specifically to create a new habit and let go of an old one.. where I trusted my mind more then my body to give me/sustain me as Life. What I can see is that I experience the last 21 days like a lifetime. So much happened - I faced so much of myself. Points opened in my world and points closed, I had to face fears and anxiety and desire and within it all - Me. Myself - and that is why I breathe. The process of facing self , as who and what self has accepted and allowed within the limited expression of thoughts , feelings ...