Day 701 (4 of 30) - This Not So Little Light of Mine

Continuing from yesterday's blog - today I will dive into self-forgiveness for how I've come to define the word Star in separation of a living expression of/as who I am. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the living word STAR

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to see and define the word star as separate from here as my living, breathing body/being

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word star to be this big thing that exists outside/separate from me here and think and believe it is something I must attain to be

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that the word star is defined as something that only some people are, that only some people are lucky enough to live

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word star within a polarity charge of positive energy and to thus seek out this positive energy as the word star as if it's separate from who I am as my living substance/expression

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that to be a star is to be the greatest thing on the planet as if it's the only thing to aspire to

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define the word star as something that you do and not as something you are

I forgive myself that I have not yet allowed myself to practically see, realize, understand, and embody the knowledge that all are stars born as a unique and special expression in/as existence that is unlike anything else and thus is a center point in/as/of/unto itself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that being a star is how one gets validation, attention, recognition, and value from others instead of seeing, realizing, understanding, and embodying the knowledge that I am already validated, seen, recognized and valued as a living, breathing being/body that is a unique express of/as life and thus to see that outside of me is to deny/diminish the truth of who I already am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish/deny the light/star that I am that burns brightly as the truth of me as all as one as equal

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being a star as the fear of being seen for who I really am

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being the center point of/as my life in fear of failing, or falling, or not living up to some idea that I think a star/sun is of one's life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe that some people are born with something special about them and others are not instead of seeing, realizing, understanding, and embodying the knowledge that all are equally born special as all life is special and nothing exists outside of Life

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and embody the knowledge that all life is special and thus value it as such

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to value all life equally as being special and of the utmost value and importance

I forgive myself that I have not yet allowed myself to see, realize, understand, and embody the knowledge that all have a burning light/fire within them that is greater than any sun in all of existence and it burns eternally and that when one allows one to realize this then all suffering can/will end

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to deny and attempt to diminish the light that is me as the star that I am in all of existence, as all are, unique unto itself and with the most precious of gifts to share

I forgive myself that I have not yet accepted and allowed myself to cherish, value, and make worthy that which is of all life and that is the innocence within each one as it's revealed in the children and the spark/star of life they can't help but to express

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish my light/life force throughout my life, day by day, month by month, year by year continually accepting a lesser version of myself that no longer recognizes or directly accesses that source of light/life within me that is the eternal source/energy/life, as seen by the children that express so unconditionally, boldly, without reservation, and consistently

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to diminish/deny myself as my light/life force because I've been told it's best to not shine brightly because if one does one can face punishment or ridicule or other consequences

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to come to believe it's better to hide my life force/light than express it because apparently, others won't understand me

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear being seen and heard and felt

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear expressing me in/as my utmost potential as the bright star/spark of life that I am so that all may see a visible, living example of what's best for all because I think and believe I will be denied/scorned, ridiculed, judged and crucified and because of this, accept a lesser version of myself that has been tamed and muted and molded to fit it to what is acceptable within reality

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear burning down what's around me from shining too brightly

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to let my light be blown out

I commit myself to shining brighter than I have ever shone before

I commit myself to showing myself my own ability to shine as expressing the being I am unconditionally, without fear and to the best of my ability - being true to who I am as life as all as one as equal as what's best for all

I commit myself to shine brightly so that others remember they can shine brightly too

I commit myself to becoming the living word STAR so that I can share with all those around me the value of my expression and give to all as I would like to receive which is the remembrance and living example of my utmost potential

I commit myself to cherish, value, and recognize the star within all life equally

I commit myself to living the word star as a stable expression of who I am that burns eternally wherein I don't hide, I don't fear, I don't pretend I am something I'm not or lesser than I am

I commit myself to becoming like a child that is full of eternal life/source substance energy that is infinite in its expression

I commit myself to continue walking the process and steps that solidify my presence as a being of life/love/light that burns equally for/as all 

Grateful for these realizations. Till tomorrow.