Kristina's Journey to Life

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear others in my reality finding me online – finding my writings and seeing my participation within desteni and support of an equal money system – and judging me and seeing me differently then how the saw me before I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself into the ‘kristina in the physical reality’ and ‘kristina on the internet’ – as if it is 2 different people, instead of realizing the same application of who I am online is who I am in person, thus not to fear exposing to othes what I am exposing to myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself as being ‘different’ and assume others will judge me for my participation within blogs and vlogs and the various sharing sites – instead of realizing this is of the mind as ego in attempt to protect the self definition that secures is position within society as being ‘acceptable’ – I stop this desire to be accepted and re=commit m...

Today I was sitting with some people, eating and talking and just hanging out. Some were inside and some were outside with me. While we were sitting there, I thought I heard my name being called, so I said, "what". The two that were sitting with me looked at me and I asked, "did someone call my name?" They said no and I said, "I thought I heard someone call my name." One of the beings said, "You should never answer if you hear your name calling and you should never walk towards where you heard your name being called" This brought up the point that I once participated within myself. The Belief that if you hear your name being called and no one is there, then it is a being from the 'other side' aka a dead guy. And that you should never answer it - as if to say they are 'negative beings' and you should not answer them. Lol - it's funny to look at this point now as I can see the silliness in it - it's just a superstition w...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define another in separation from me through defining them based on their appearance I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see another separate from me through seeing them as an imgae that I like and thus place them on a pedestal as something special I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become nervous in the presence of males in my reality I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become anxious in the presence of males in my reality I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define males that I Have perceived as attractive on a pedestal as something special and then allow my experience to change in their presence as I define them as more then me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to separate myself as being inferior to males in my reality that I define as ‘good looking’ I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to generate energy as excitem...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to feel threatened by another and their motivation within their actions and thus try to diminish them within defining them as irrelevant and react any time they suggests anything to me I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to see another as confident within their actions within specific work and thus feel inferior within this point and thus instead of standing equal as expressiong/living myself as self confidence – feel inferior and try to diminish them as I feel diminished within myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my own inferiority within confidence onto another instead of taking responsibility for myself in how I see myself as not confident I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as not a confidant person I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define not being confident with being weak I forgive myself for accepting and allowing mys...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself believe life is about competition I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe that in life I have to be more then another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to when I feel as if I am not being ‘more’ then another or I am not wining within the competition I have created within myself to/towards another – attempt to diminish them through blame I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within this need for power and control over another through competition and if I experience myself as inferior to another being – believing I have to diminish them within myself or outwardly towards them in order to regain my perceived sense of power and control I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I have no power and control within myself and thus desire to have this over another I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to give my power and control away to me a...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to experience myself as a victim within the pain of a head ache I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to become a victim to my physical pain as a head ache instead of seeing it as physical support in showing me what I have accepted and allowed through thinking myself into separation I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define myself as weak within the physical pain of a headache. I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to define my experience as weak within this experience of a head ache I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to believe I am unable to support myself within releasing myself from this physical pain I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to fear experiencing pain as I have not yet allowed myself to support myself within releasing myself from the physical pain I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to exist within limitation as the ...

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to make a commitment to myself and then not walk the correction within realizing this is dishonesty and how I abuse myself in such a way I do not trust myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use ‘I cannot trust myself’ as a way to judge myself and keep myself from standing within the correction I have committed myself to live I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to judge myself for when I have fallen within points I could have corrected through the commitments I have made to myself – yet did not and then go and judge myself for it creating then a resistance to walking through the correction – this time for self I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to use resistances as an excuse to give up on myself within commitments I Have made to myself I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to design myself in such a way where I resist actually living in ways that support me to c...