581: Bombarded and Overwhelmed... A Meltdown is not the only Solution!

A month or so ago I was experiencing this point of being overwhelmed and like I was 'wanted' in so many directions... between getting a new puppy, how busy I was at work, continuing to maintain the house with the other cats and my partner, the daily responsibilities I have, I was feeling quite anxious and tense in seeing all the places "I was needed". And so I did some self-forgiveness to support myself in slowing down, stopping the energetic experience and to start seeing solutions. Enjoy!

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel I cannot control myself when I am being pulled in so many directions

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as though I'm being bombarded from all angles in my environment and to exist within the thought, 'I can't take it'

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as if I'm being pushed and pulled in all sorts of directions in my environment and to within this - feel like I cannot slow down, or manage all the points calling for my attention

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as overwhelmed when there seem to be multiple points calling for my attention and to within this, feel as if there isn't enough of me - I don't have enough to give, and believe "I can only do so much"

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to take full responsibility for myself, for this life, and for all equally - but to within this, feel like I cannot even manage the few points in my reality that seem to be calling to me at the same time

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to just want to be left alone so I can have a moment to myself - thinking and believing there is too much being asked of me and I am only one person

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize, and understand that what is here is in a dire situation and I must stand within myself absolutely stable to be able to direct myself and so this world as a reflection of myself - and to within this, I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to slow down as the points that come up for me to direct and instead respond automatically as if I cannot handle it and feel I must have a meltdown

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want more responsibility but to then become agitated when that desire for responsibility is being challenged

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to 'do more' but when it comes down to it, I want to do more 'my way' wherein I don't have to take responsibility for anything else but myself

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to blame the points that call for my attention as if they are nagging and bombarding me instead of realizing it is a lot of commotion to get my attention

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not pay attention to what is here

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to give direction within myself in relation to the energetic experiences and thoughts that support an idea of being overwhelmed and bombarded and spread too thin

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel like I can only take so much

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I've been stretched too thin - in this implying I have not had a part in accepting and allowing it, and thus blame the external points that are stretching me too far

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to utilize my own ability to stop and slow down in a moment - especially when I see a build up of energy that is accumulating fast as a reaction to all the points calling for my attention at once

When and as I see myself reacting to points outside of me that seem to be calling for me to pay attention, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that to react to what is here calling my attention is to miss the very point of WHAT IS HERE and IS calling my attention and so perhaps miss an opportunity to direct, learn, grow, and change and so I commit myself to stop resisting reality as reacting to the external points in my environment asking for my attention and to rather stop and see, look and investigate, ask and understand what is here for me - what is needing my attention?

I commit myself to pay more attention to what's going on within myself and within my environment

I commit myself to practice embracing responsibility rather than reacting to it

I commit myself to embrace the external points bombarding me and stand within it as the silent center of the storm

I commit myself to breathe more in these moments

I commit myself to stop me as an automation as my instant reaction and instead self-direct through breath-awareness and the principle of what's best for all

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