Kristina's Journey to Life

One point that has become present for me recently is this point of allowing others to walk their process (live their life) and that comes from me allowing myself to walk my own. To get more specific here, I can see with my partner for instance there has been times where I become too concerned with what he's doing or how he's moving himself, and in times where I feel I must step in and say something like intervening, which isn't a problem per se, but the starting point was usually coming from within me my own points of frustration and irritation and want for him to change. Though in this last year especially, what seems to be surfacing as much more relevant is this point of me becoming completely focused on myself in terms of what I'm doing, how I'm directing myself, what I am applying myself within each day... and in that reflection of who I am within it all, seeing the responsibility to myself of ensuring I am standing within a point of integrity, honesty, a...

Recently my partner and I had to make a decision I was not at all thrilled about, and in fact, reacted quite extreme to when the suggestion was made. We were in a situation where we had to re-consider some plans that were already in place, and while being in this situation, and looking at the upcoming plans we had in place, we considered it may not work out and we may have to cancel those plans and change direction entirely. And while within me, CLEARLY, I could see the practical reality situation, what would be best for ourselves, and so best for all as we would not be putting ourselves in a compromising situation... we were, in fact, deciding to act in a preventative way, I refused to accept it!! Initially. When we started opening up the discussion about changing plans I basically threw a tantrum. I hated the idea. I hated the fact that that was the option presented to us. I hated that that was in fact what was best, and I made it a point within myself to resist, reject, a...

Forgiveness is a word I am still working with - understanding my definition of it, how I've understood it, asking myself if I've lived it. It came up as a word to look closer at because I was reconnected to this realization that essentially what this world needs is forgiveness. It is the ultimate tool we have to utilize to let go of what's been done and to start anew. Which is what we require in this world. There is no doubt in that. And so about a month ago I faced a moment where I had to pull forgiveness within and through me to change myself in a moment, and it was quite cool actually. I was communicating with a family member and the words they were speaking, what they were saying I did not like. I absolutely hated actually. I became 'livid' - so angry, I was kind of taken aback by it. And in the moment of "hearing them" (we were texting) - I attempted 3 or 4 times to write out a response that I ended up deleting. And the reason I ended up delet...

A month or so ago I was experiencing this point of being overwhelmed and like I was 'wanted' in so many directions... between getting a new puppy, how busy I was at work, continuing to maintain the house with the other cats and my partner, the daily responsibilities I have, I was feeling quite anxious and tense in seeing all the places "I was needed". And so I did some self-forgiveness to support myself in slowing down, stopping the energetic experience and to start seeing solutions. Enjoy! I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel I cannot control myself when I am being pulled in so many directions I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel as though I'm being bombarded from all angles in my environment and to exist within the thought, 'I can't take it' I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to experience myself as if I'm being pushed and pulled in all sorts of directions in m...