663: Resistance, Complacency, and Fear of Failure

Another blog about resistance... I swear resistances have become the story of my life. My approach recently has been to 'wait it out' instead of being more direct in understanding WHAT exactly I am resisting and why. And so, some forgiveness to get myself moving through the resistance instead of just waiting on the sidelines:

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within a resistance towards my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in such a way where I resist doing certain things because those things are beyond my comfort zone - they make me challenge my insecurities and self-doubts and self-definition

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to think and believe I have to just let my resistance to life 'play out' and that eventually, I will 'feel' like doing something again instead of realizing that despite how I feel, I must act - that is me truly transcending

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to act in spite of my resistance

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to get to know a understand WHY I am resisting what I am resistance - as deconstructing the nature of my experience instead of accepting it as resistance and waiting patiently to pass

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become complacent within resistance where I sit and wait for it to pass instead of being more proactive to uncover what is causing it as the root of my experience

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist doing certain things because I fear I will fail

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure because I think and believe if I fail at what I will attempt to do, everyone will see it and know it and judge me for it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging me for failing instead of embracing myself for even trying

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to care more about what other people think instead of honoring myself enough to even try

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to, in my valuing what others think more than my own life, exist in a complacent state of waiting for this resistance to work itself out

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to resist facing failure

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to define failure as that which will destroy me and my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear failure

I forgive myself that I have not accepted and allowed myself to redefine failure as a practical reference for something not working out where it becomes an opportunity to try something else

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to get caught up in the problem as a failure instead of sticking to the solution as a way to move myself forward

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to suspend myself in life, wherein I sit in a state of waiting, because I fear moving forward in things like I'd like to do because I fear it won't work out, that I will make a fool of myself, and others will see this as well instead of realizing I have only this one life and I will be full of more regret if I do not ACT now and instead allow fear to freeze me

When and as I see myself resisting doing certain things I'd actually like to do or I see would be cool to do, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize, and understand that it's my responsibility to understand the nature of why I am resisting doing something in life and to change my relationship to that thing so I no longer resist it and so I commit myself to see the opportunities within resistances as an indicator of where I can redefine myself and my relationship to things in life so that I can more effectively move through life, one step at a time and not getting caught at walls of resistances

When and as I see myself fearing to fail, I stop and I breathe. I see, realize and understand that part of my resistance is due to how I've defined fear with a negative energy within it and that I can change how I define it to be of something that is of value and a practical service to me as letting me know there's another way for me to go and so I commit myself to not fear failure but rather walk moment to moment with the trust that I will be shown the way to go, and I will direct myself within principles that are best for me



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  1. Really great post Kristina, thanks for pushing through your resistances to share this!

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