25 October 2015

426: What Good is You Knowing?

“I know, I know...”

This statement is something I’ve said in my life recently. In a way it’s always been a part of my life. You can see it as that point within you of seeing, knowing, and understanding that perhaps there is something you want to change, that you could change, that you are not in fact living your utmost potential, that you are in fact not giving it your all, that you are in fact not directing yourself as effectively as you could, and yet…. despite You knowing it, you just don’t do anything about it.

So it’s that point of ‘knowledge is useless without application.’ At least for me I can see this is how I have and am currently living this statement, “I know, I know…” Like don’t remind me, I already know what I’m not doing, I already know what I could be doing, I already know I’ve giving up on myself, I already know I’m not changing, I already know I’m not living the best version of me… I already know I’ve believed I just can’t do it.

So the “I know, I know” is that a statement of defeat. That while you KNOW something about yourself, you don’t do anything about it. It simply is the way it is, and you accept it.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within the statement of, “I know, I know” as a point within me that sees within self honesty what I can do differently, how I can be more effectively directing myself, how I can apply certain actions that are changing who I am, and yet I don’t… I just see it, I just know it, but I don’t do anything about it

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist in such a way where I see and know what I can do differently to change myself/my life, yet not apply it – thus keeping myself in a perpetual state of dissatisfaction as I’m never fully allowing myself to live my utmost potential

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to become defensive when others see within me points I’ve seen within myself, yet that I have not effectively directed to change and as a way to ‘save face’, allow myself to say “I know, I know” like saying, ‘You don’t have to tell me, I already know/see this about myself” yet within this, have no real intention to change - only the bad feeling that I haven't changed

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not take my seeing, knowing and understanding into living application, as the point which makes knowledge usefull in this physical life and living

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to exist within knowledge rather than living application – making knowledge REAL and tangible and actually what is best for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not do anything about what I see can be changed within myself, and within this life for all

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to not realize the ‘I know, I know” statement is within a point of apathy and acceptance, where I don’t really care to do anything about that which I know, that which I see, and understand, instead just allowing it to be what it is and thus perpetuation the state of existence that humanity currently lives as not caring to get involved, submitting to how things exists as just 'the way it is', and so not be directive, and to make real changes in their life and the life of all, as the point of self-responsibility - being the source of change within/as/of this world

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to say “ I know, I know” as a point of not taking responsibility for a lack of directive living as the application of the knowledge I have about myself, about what it takes to change, and those actions that will produce, physically, change in my life

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to live in complacency as the statement of “I know, I know” – doing nothing of what I know, comfortable with how things are

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed knowledge to be useless within myself, wherein I do not take that which I see, know, and understand into a living application of change – where I no longer think about changes, but actually, daringly, change for REAL

I commit myself to stop just knowing how to change, and instead implement real change as the daily actions that produce, slowly but surely, a change over time in the physical

I commit myself to stop thinking about what I want to change, or what I could be changing, yet not take it into practical living application

I commit myself to stop creating a dissatisfaction experience within myself from not living my utmost potential as not living the knowing within me

I commit myself to no longer accept and allow myself to see what needs to be changed, but to not do anything about it

I commit myself to stand up within myself, and within this life, to no longer allow knowledge to be useless and instead live the knowledge that is in fact best for all

I commit myself to make myself useful as living the knowledge I’ve gained throughout the years, to apply the changes in my physical living as the only way to real change, to substantial change, to change that is visible and an example for others as being truly what is best for all



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22 October 2015

425: Consider your Position

Have you ever had that experience where you wanted to be upset with someone? Where you wanted to actually fight with them?

I can see for myself in moments of conflict with another, often times I can see it’s a conflict I am perpetuating. Meaning – I am the one who is feeding the conflict within me with my thoughts, I am not letting it go, I am not being forgiving, I am standing my ground in a self-righteousness of blame and revenge.

Which is strange, isn’t it? Why would we want to be in conflict with another? Do we like to fight? Do we like to create chaos?

I do see the relationship between who I am within conflict with others, and the existential reality of war. Why do wars exist? Because I can see within my own nature, war exists, and as within so without – equal and one. So I realize that it is my responsibility, as an individual within the whole, that I must stop the inner wars to begin stopping the outer war. I mean we must all do that, which is how wars will cease to exist, when they no longer exist within humanity’s nature.

Though despite this realization, I often see when I am in the midst of conflict towards another, it is often something I deliberately choose NOT to stop. I want to fight. I want to argue. I want to be right, and for them to be wrong, and I want to hold against them whatever it is I think they’ve done bad. It’s like I place myself in the superior position of being right and I must be the almighty condemner of punishment or something, and in that I must impose my law or rule unto them. And when I see I ‘want’ to fight, it’s a deliberate choice I am then making to speak in the energy of conflict within me. I will chose to use words that are attacking. I will chose to act in spite, and aggression, I will do what it takes to destroy the ‘enemy’.

Then the conflict plays out and the cycle ends and most likely than not, I feel regret. Regret because in the conflict, I tarnish the relationship I had towards who I was in conflict with. Often times we say things we don’t actually mean, but we know if we say it, it will hurt. Like how we drop bombs. We memorialize the dead after we dropped the bomb. We say it is devastating, and we mourn, and we have anniversaries to ‘honor’ the dead for years to come. We are ashamed of the destruction we create, we say it should never happen again, and we say we should strive for peace. Though we were the ones to do it in the first place. And often times we speak empty words. So of course it’s obvious – we know what we are doing when we do it – whether that is speaking in spite to hurt another person, or to drop a bomb that will destroy an entire area of the world – we do it deliberately to create harm and destruction. And this we believe is how to solve our problems.

Conflicts never come out of nowhere. They are an accumulation of thoughts circling in our minds. We think over and over again how ‘they’ve’ done us wrong. We think over and over again how mean or rude or disruptive they’re being. We blame them for being that way. We think its wrong they are like that. We generate emotions with it – we are angry, we are frustrated, and we are impatient. We begin to harness spite, especially if we feel attacked, which is us taking things personally. We make things personal, we take things too seriously. We automatically default to conflict in an attempt to solve a problem, to align a misalignment. We never think about communicating, we trust our inner emotions and thoughts. And so we go into conflict.

Imagine if we were to instead stop, and breathe. To stop participating in thoughts of blame, and to rather communicate, directly, and immediately any time any rift comes up within us. We dare to speak openly and honestly about what we are experience, and why, daring to be self-honest with ourselves and so then another. Often when we are in conflict with another, we are not facing our own truth – we are just tunneled vision to the apparent problem which often we will placed outside, and separate from ourselves. In our minds, we are never wrong, we are always right, and god dammit, we think it’s time for others to know.

So next time you see you are at war with another, whether actually, physically and verbally, or whether it’s still just being conjured up in your mind, consider your position. Consider where you are coming from, if you are blaming, if you are in spite, if you are being self-honest in your role in how a relationship is currently existing. Ask yourself, ‘what can I do differently” or “how can I approach this with a solution-minded direction’ rather than a full force of destructive behavior. Remember – whatever we say, whatever we do, whatever we think is who we really are and once it’s within us, or expressed from us, it’s here in this reality and we cannot take it back. What is done is done, and so prevention is the best cure.

Instead of defaulting to war and fighting and arguing and blaming and spiting and the mayhem we inflict on each other…. Stop and breathe. Know you have the CHOICE to make, and you either make it within self-awareness, as self-honesty as the principles of what is best for ALL, or you chose to be right, to nurture your ego of self-interest, and not care about anything or anyone around you as what becomes most important is YOU being RIGHT and imposing that belief unto others – making sure the other has to face the wrath of you that is directed by the mind, by thoughts, by emotions, by beliefs, by opinions, by self-definitions that constrict you from acting in accordance to common sense and doing unto another as you would have done unto you.

Stop wars. Choose to find Solutions. That is one part of ourselves, as human nature, we must change.



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